The Proper Way To Be (Lesbian story)

Thinking heavy

(Kai)

It felt good to know I have supportive people on my side, even my dad. It was Sunday morning when he called to ask me and yonna's family did we want to attend church with him, and I really could use some guidance for the decision I was about to make. Lord knows I'm not up for killing an innocent fetus, but neither am I up for bring it up into a world where I might not know how to take care of it properly.

"Iyonna, c'mon out of the bathroom my dad will be here any minute" I yelled to Iyonna who was taking forever in the bathroom. I stepped back from the door hearing her twist the door knob, She opened the door and my eyes instantly locked onto her...she looked so beautiful and I couldn't help but stare. Her light brown eyes that just dazzled without light, her full indulging lips...they always left a space permanent between her top and bottom lip.

"Kai!" Iyonna Said Interrupting my thoughts "...y-yeaah?" I Replied stuttering because I was still in the daze a little. "What are you staring at?" She said, extending the 'a' in stare while waving her hand in front of my face Trying to snap me out of the daze "oh oh sorry, I couldn't help but stare you know...when you got some beautiful human standing in front of you can't help but stare" I said as I approached her and wrapped my arms around her waist. She smiled and kissed my forehead. she looked down on me (because she was a little bit taller than me) and we just stood there staring at each other as I rested my chin on her chest. She had the biggest, beautifulest eyes ever. They were definitely mesmerizing and you couldn't help but stare into them with full concentration, but we was interrupted as the doorbell rang which of course had to be my dad. I kissed her on the cheek and we intertwined hands and proceeded downstairs.

When we got downstairs and ms.vita had already let my dad inside, he was with his boss/mistress, mrs.wallum. "Hello darling" my dad said as he kissed me on the top of my head as I hugged him "hey dad, hey mrs.wallum" I couldn't really be mad at her anymore because my mom knew and there was no reason to be mad at her, my mom and dad were splitting before she came in the picture.

"Hello Kaily, nice see you again" she said with a warm smile. Her teeth were so perfect and I loved her smile. "Same Here. You remember my friend...well my GIRLfriend, Iyonna right?" I put emphasizes on the 'girl' in girlfriend because I never really said that, said it out loud in front my dad, or her mom. It's so weird, like I wonder what her mom thinks about this. I do know it was hard for her to tell her because she was contemplating on it for a whole week. "No, I'm not sure I do, nice to officially meet you Iyonna, In Mrs. Wallum. You can call me Lisa" she said as she extended her hand to shake yonna's. "Nice to meet you as well mrs.wallum. Hahah I mean Lisa. This is my mom Ms.Vita." She said as she stepped behind her mom and pushed her forward. Ms.Vita extended her hand to shake Mrs.Wallum's. "Nice to meet you" her mom said with a warm smile as well.

"Well not that everyone is acquainted, I think we should go. The church isn't actually too far from here" my dad said. We all grabbed our things and headed out the door. "Whoa, dad nice ride. Why didn't you tell me?!" I said as I saw my dad brand new jeep sitting in the driveway. It was so beautiful, matte black everything, tented windows. I was so in love, it was my favorite car too. "Oh you like it that much?" My dad said as he threw me the keys "That's Just why it's yours" Omg, did he just say what I think he said. Like how? Why even? "Oh my gosh, really dad?!!" I said as I ran up to the truck and touched it. It felt just as I imagined it would. "Yes really, get in. You have your license right?" "Yes!" I replied so quickly to that question, shaking my head in excitement. "Well go right ahead, you can drive it to the church. You can follow me and Lisa, and If Ms.vita wants she can ride with us." Iyonna's mom nodded in confirmation.

I ran up to my dad and hugged him "Thank you, thank you so much" I said as I squeezed tighter. I could now feel his heart beating, it's rhythm was as if he was smiling. He was happy, and so was I. "You welcome baby, I'm glad I can do something for you that's all" I hugged him one last time and we got into our cars. "Ahhh it feels good to say that" I thought to myself .

Me and Iyonna got in the car and started touching around, looking at things, figuring it out. The inside was so much better looking, beige leather HEATED seats, sky roof, mini fridge, touching screen radio system, man! This car was everything and beyond. I could tell he got it customized too! My dad started to pull of so I started up the engine and Oohhh baby did it sound lovely. I pulled out and continued to follow them to the church.

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"Can everybody please turn their bibles to 'Jermiah 20:17' " The pastor of our church had been giving me the words I need to hear. I mean the exact words. Although he was, I was becoming confused on my decision about the abortion. "The verse Says 'Taking the life of the unborn is clearly murder, he didn't kill me in the womb, with my mother as my grave.' Precisely! Now why in the world does every female go out and get an abortion? I don't know I don't know! But somebody please tell me why it's LEGAL!! Most of these young girls out here today love to do the nasty but hate to take care of the baby when it's time. God gives kids to the wrong people must I say, but The Lord knows exactly what he's doing. Now I dont want to put anyone on blast, so please everyone bow your heads and let me pray over yall"

As the pastor prayed my thoughts began to wonder because he was right, my mother didnt kill me so why should I kill mine. Although I dont know how to take care of the baby or how I'll support it....I think Im going to keep it. This is going to be a drastic decision but I think its the best decision. I dont know why but I think the lord is telling me something because this is the very first time the pastor have preached on a different subject.

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"Hey yonna..."

"Yea Babe?"

"I was thinking...and I think I want to keep it..."

"Huh??! Say that again" she said with so much excitement, focusing full attention towards me.

"Yea, what the pastor said today was really pondering on my brain and I wouldn't want my child to suffer. What if it's the only one I'll ever be able to have? I'm killing an innocent soul for no reason. You know?"

"Wow....I was hoping that happened. I'm glad you're seeing it, all the things you've said just now went cross my brain millions of times.....expect the soul part. Fetuses don't have souls." She said with amazement. I know it was all surreal to her because she did want the baby from the very beginning and I just didn't think about any of this. This could be my miracle baby for all I know. We discussed it more to map things out before we actually decided to tell our parents, Especially her mom....she was a victim of this but she didn't have the option for adoption or abortion.

She was at a party without her moms permission and some men raped her and she got pregnant with yonna's oldest brother. Her mom never really talks about it because well 1. It's not something you'll just converse about and 2. It made her and her mom fall out and they haven't spoken since her brothers 3rd birthday. I don't know if I feel bad or what because yonna's brother is the miracle child. He's really successful with his own business and everything, pays all the bills for his mom and has his own family. So I just wonder if I'll turn out like that. I don't know, I really don't care either I just don't want to give this baby up. I really hope my family understands....I really hope they do.