In love G.D

move on?

It had been 2 months since I have seen or talked to him ... I've told my mum and she was fine with it , I'm homeschooled and have my own home... I'm sure he's moved on, has a girlfriend, and is happy... Me on the other hand is still broken, worthless.. words can't explain how I feel.. but it's a difficult feeling... I still to this day cry every morning... Knowing someone else is holding him, kissing him, and loving him.. and that someone isn't me...

As I peel off the celotape , and open the cardboard box.. my fingers softly run over the bottle inside... I take the bottle out and open it , putting the different chemicals inside.. I sqeeze the product into my hair... Massaging it in... After 30 minutes I wash my hair, leaving it a deap purple colour...
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I walk up to my long mirror to look at my new hair... As I look at my bare body in the mirror I remember that very day I got this tattoo... It was our tatoo.. I take a deap breath as I cover up my body with clothing.. and walk down the stairs... Grabbing my bag and opening the door, and making sure to shut it and lock it behind me... I get into my new car , my Chevrolet..

I shut the door and put in the keys... Pushing my foot against the excelarator , and the car starts moving... Feeling the wind against my skin as I drive down the road , going past several cars... Then I stop at a peircing shop... Parking my car and getting out , locking the car as I walk off... I walk into the small building, looking around at the different peircings.. my eyes come across a nose ring and lip ring... I walk over to the guy at the desk and ask him ...
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A couple minutes later they are peirced into my skin... I look at myself in the tall mirror in the shop... This is what the peircing looks like.. (not what the person look like lol)

I thank the guy before walking out the shop and walking back outside and into another shop... A clothing shop... I look through the different styles and types of clothing, brushing my fingers against the material of the clothes... I slightly smile a I come across a outfit... I go into the dressing room and try it on... Grinning at what I could see...

I got changed back into my clothes and walked up to the counter to pay for my clothes... I walk out of the shop, getting into my car ... Driving off , back home...
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*3 hours later*

I'm currently laying in bed , looking through Instagram... When I come across a photo... Tears start streaming down my face as I look at the picture... I never knew it would hurt this bad... But it has... My heart is 100% broken... He has moved on.. found someone new... I just feel dead now... Of course he was going to move on.. he wouldn't wait for me or fight for me back.. who would?...

I lock my phone and put it on my bedside table, and scream...

Y/n: why!!!

Y/n: what did I do to deserve this?!!

I sit there crying my eyes out... I can't do this anymore... I'm so broken... I guess he never really loved me... No one loves me... Only my mum... And I don't get to see her... I look at the photo again and , bite my lip to try and stop crying... That could of been me.. but it isn't... I think a moment before commenting... My fingers tap the phone screen... I looked at what I commented...
'@ Selina keep him happy and safe 💗
... I take a breath before turning my phone off and closing my eyes...
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Graysons POV:

It's been months since I've seen her... It breaks my heart knowing that I wasn't there for her or believed her when she needed me the most... I've moved on though... Yes I promised myself id never move on but she's gone.. she doesn't want to know me and I understand why... But I'll always love her ... Ill never stop.. laying in my bed looking through the comments on my recent post I come across a comment what made my heart skip a beat... ' @ Selina keep him happy and safe💗'
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Tears started falling from my eyes one after another... She still cares about me after everything she's been through because of me... I click onto her account to see no posts... I click to message her and take a breath before sending it...
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