Hello, Goodbye.

Chapter 14

"I love you too, Dyrek."

I whispered, as soon as I woke up and slightly smiled, staring into the morning sun.

After I told my mom everything that's happened with Dyrek, (Minus us taking eachothers V-cards) she let stay home from school for 3 days, so I could have time to calm down.

I try my hardest not to think about Dyrek, but what's done is done. He's gone, and now there's nothing I can do about it. But each day I'm slowly getting better, trying to make the best of my mornings and nights. I put on smiles in front of people, real and fake, I go for walks, and I even visit Dyrek's mom sometimes to check up on her.

I'm slowly getting better. One day I'll be happy. Not as happy as I was before, but only time can tell.

When I finally went to school after I cooled down, I was bombarded by a crowd of students. They were all shooting questions at me about Dyrek and why he did what he did. And honestly I don't wanna deal with this right now. I miss him enough already so this isn't making it any better.

That's when my savior Lexy came to my rescue, getting me out of the crowd and yelling at everyone to piss of. Once we made it to safer grounds she pulled me in for the tightest hug I've ever experienced.

"Harlow, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how you feel." she said.

"Don't worry about it Lex, I'll be fine. I'm getting better." I said giving her a smile.

"I'm glad. Mind if I change the subject?" she asked.

"Please." I said assuringly.

"Well... I told my mom about, you know. And she was really disappointed. And angry. And pissed.. did I mention angry?" Lexy said. "But after she finished crying, yelling at me, and throwing any piece of furniture in her range at me, she calmed down and said that she wants me to keep the baby. She doesn't believe in abortions because it's killing a human being, and she doesn't want me going through that. So I'd say she supports me... 63%" she smiled.

"Oh Lex." I giggled. "I'm just glad she didn't kick you out or anything."

"That would be okay, because I'd just move in with you." she smirked as we locked arms and headed to class.

Two weeks later, I straightened out my black satin dress and stepped inside the limo that would me transporting Lexy's family and mine to the church. Yes, that's right. Today was Dyrek's funeral and I don't think I'm ready mentally, nor physically.

As we arrived, there had to be about one hundred people flowing out this church, exchanging hugs and drying tears. For a quiet guy I didn't know Dyrek knew this many people.

The second row was reserved for Lexy's family and mine, the third for Ashton's, and the first for Dyrek's.

After about thirty minutes, it was time for me to give my speech, and of course, I was last.

"Good morning everyone." I cleared my throat as I arrived at the podium.

I'm pretty sure I was sweating buckets as I was up there fidgeting on the stage. I was so nervous to say half the words I wrote on my index card.

"Screw it." I said under my breath as I threw the card behind me.

"Only about two months ago, I never thought I'd be standing where I was today. When I met Dyrek, I never expected for us to go through all that we went through. I never expected us to have so many ups and downs. But most importantly, I never expected us so fall so deeply in love." my voice started to shake, but I just cleared my throat again and sucked it up. "I loved basically everything about Dyrek. There wasn't anything I hated about him. So just the fact that this is mainly my fault, and me and Dyrek ended at a horrible foot, makes me hate my self. There won't be one day that goes past that I don't blame my self for what happened to Dyrek." that's when I felt warm tears beginning to slowly fall down my cheeks. "I can only apologize now, but not like that's gonna change anything. So Dyrek Alexander Castles, I love you with all my heart and soul, and I always will til the day I die." I had to end to speech there, or else I would of broke down on stage in front of everyone. "Thank you." I forced a smile as I stepped off the podium.

Things haven't been so bad since then. In my sophomore year of highschool I met a lot of great, loving friends. I also told my self I wouldn't date again until senior year, because I needed more time. Lexy's stomach grew bigger and bigger each day, and was due in only two months. Oh, by the way, it's going to be a girl, and Lexy decided to name her Alex, based on Dyrek's middle name, which I thought was so sweet. Her boyfriend Andrew even stood by her every second. He's such a good guy, I hope he treats my bestfriend well. There's a giant shrine full of flowers, candles and pictures at the park where me and Dyrek had our picnic, dedicated to him. I visit it once a week and occasionally add things to it. My mom even got married to that snobby boyfriend of hers, her turned out to be not so bad. He's a sweet and loving guy with a lot of money. We even moved into a bigger house, only a couple miles away from Lexy and our old one. He treats me like his own daughter, and I'm really glad to have him there for me.

And as for me, well I'm just going with the flow. My new friends, step dad, mom, and my best friends new child are all I need right now. I'm finally better. I still miss and love Dyrek every day that passes, but I'm moving on. I know I'll never be as happy as I used to be, but I'm content as of now. So goodbye friends, hope to see you soon.

- Harlow Marie Fitch.

A/N: I had to reupload chapters 11-14 because it got messed up with the epilogue, so sorry for that!