Internet love can become real

7

Just a note~ in this chapter there is a lot of time skips due to a lot of this is depressive and I don't like to drag on- enjoy the chapter ;)
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When I got home I broke up with Callum. I send the break up message and I cry a little...
*my phone rings*
It's Callum... I answer...
"Is this for real?!" He cries down the phone and I sigh, this is hard because I haven't been in this situation for like a year or so now.
"Yeah Callum it is" I end the call. I ignore his messages and I put his chat on mute, I remove the nick names and I completely ignore him.
"Sophie what's happened between you and Callum? Deborah said you've broken up!" My mum calls from the other room. I head into my mums room and I just tell her that I just don't feel the same anymore (which for a fact was true but wasn't the full reason, I'm not gonna tell Callum the real reason. He doesn't need to know).
"Yeah mum we did, I just don't feel he same for him any more"

*a few days go by*

I'm not sure about this to be honest... I'm not sure if the feelings toward him are as strong as I think... I'll stay with him because I love him but if it really really doesn't feel right then I'll leave him... it's gonna be hard because I still love alfie but I don't want to drag him on because he is such an amazing, caring, funny and gorgeous man and I love him.
I see alfie the next day and I'm so happy in his arms just cuddling and watching you tube and Netflix, OMG NO NOT NEFLIX AND CHILL COME ON PEOPLE. Days I just cuddle up with him and ignore all my problems are the best, they are so chilled out.

A week has gone by... I don't think I can stay in this relationship anymore... I don't want to drag him on. I think imma break up with him... I mean, I love him so much but...
I send him a message the early Friday morning and I then head to sleep due to school the same day. I cry myself to sleep because of what I'd done...

*Friday morning*

I tell no one... no one whatsoever that I'm upset about Alfie. I hide it with a smile and a laugh at school and just try to enjoy being single and trust me it's easier said than done. I get on with my lessons and my work. At break I go to put some music on and I see my home screen... it's me and alfie and I start to cry a little but it's okay... I guess...

*two months goes by*

I-I can't do this... I'm breaking down every five to ten minutes... no exaggeration. I only listen to like 4 songs on repeat... Happier- Ed Sheeran, lighter- gabs, half a heart- one direction and sad song- we the kings. They all bring back memories and it's the only music I can actually listen to... I need to see him again....

Me: "Viktorija I need a massive favour😭" I message my best friend, if this goes to plan then I'll get them to talk and eventually meet up but little will he know I'll be there.
Viktorija: "What's wrong?"
Me: "I need you to try to get hold of alfie... I can't deal with all these break downs... all this crying... I need to speak to him and see him😭"
Viktorija: "whats his insta??"
Me: "hold on I'll screen shot it, please just talk to him for me😭"
Viktorija: "of course will do"
I don't know whether to cry with happiness or fear right now...
Days have gone by... slowly... still no follow back... My break downs are getting worse... I can hardly breath when I have them and after...
I get caitlin to message him on Facebook and she gets a reply straight away.... my heart is racing... I- I need to talk to him...