Internet love can become real

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*phone rings*
Shit.... I think it's alfie... I've just got home I can't answer... so I text him...
Me: "i-is this alfie...😭" I message him... shaking like mad and my heart pounding out my chest...
Supposedly Alfie: "Yeah, are you okay?!" Thank god it's alfie...
Me: yeah... well no not really" and from here I explain everything, I explain my break downs and the pain I was in... I should probably ask him to meet on Monday... it's Friday now so.... yeah Monday. Will 15.01.18 be the new bio date...?
I message him to ask if he would like to meet and to my surprise he agreed and he said he will pick my up after school Monday, I'm not going to lie I'm actually really worried about how this will go. I honestly feel so much calmer after talking to him... like weight has been relieved from my shoulders.
Realising you need to delete the conversations is quite a struggle... with a controlling ass boyfriend (Oh I forgot to mention, me and Callum got back together after a while) who always goes through my phone, I don't think him seeing mine and Alfie's conversations is the best idea right now... but for no longer will I have to worry. I reckon Sunday I'll leave him... gives me a day or so to think about how to leave him and how to make sure he doesn't fight for me back because this time it's for good.

***sunday night***
I mean here goes nothing, I mean it can't be that hard, I left him the first time last month so it can't be that hard this time... right?
Me: "Babe can we talk?"
Callum: "what's wrong?"
Me: "I'm breaking up with you... for real this time"
Callum: "baby why?? We've been going strong since we got back together I can't do this..."
Me: " I'm sorry..."
Callum: "please don't leave I can go through that again"
Callum: "Sophie please"
Callum: "please baby......."
Me: "alright fine"
I start to cry because I feel like I've just forced to stay with him... this is going horrible... I don't want him no more what doesn't he understand?!

I kinda need to check if I'm still meeting him tomorrow... I think he's asleep..
me: "hey are we meeting still tomorrow? Xxxxxx"

***Around ten to twenty minutes later***

Alfie: "Yeah if course, your school right? Xxxxxx"
Me: "yeeee xxxxxx"
I get an early sleep compared to normal so I can get a good start tomorrow. My anxiety kicks in as soon as I try to sleep... I mean I can tell why I'm nervous. I guess I should ask Caitlin to wait for me after school... in case something bad happens like I break down or I have anxiety attack.
Me: "Caitlin you busy tomorrow after school?"
Caitlin: "nu not really why what's up?"
Me: "can you wait with me after school for alfie... he's coming to meet me and pick me up and I'm scared something bad will happen"
Caitlin: "yeah of course but I gotta go straight awake okay?"
Me: "yeah cool thank you Caitlin, I'll see ya in the morning"
I drift off to sleep...