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***monday 5th period***
I sit by one of my best friends Viktorija in French, that's what makes the dragging lesson fun. Always taking the piss out of each other and copying each other's work because we do not give two fucks about this subject but to be honest in all fairness no one does.
I... I can't do this...
I run to the toilets having an anxiety attack and I grab a blade... oh come on Sophie your better than this... don't...
I ignore my thoughts... I take the blade to my skin... seconds later I have blood running from my ankle... why am I so stupid.... I go to punch the wall but a girl walks in so I don't and I limp to class..
I sit by viktorija and smile.
"Viktorija... I don't feel too good, I'm seeing alfie in like half an hour and I'm really scared. What if it goes wrong??"
"It'll be okay, your just nervous"
"O-okay.."
I hug Viktorija before I leave class tightly, I go to find Caitlin and we head to the office to wait.
"Hey Cait imma calm alfie quick alright?" I ask and she nods and just laughs at doctor who memes ahah, what's new to be honest.
*my phone rings as I wait for him to pick up*
He picks up....
"Hello.."
"Hey you alright?"
"Yeah just asking to see if you're still meeting me at my school?"
"Yeah course I'm just grabbing lunch in McDonald's and I'll be on my way"
"O-okay I'll s-see you soon"
***the call ends***
Well he's meeting me still.
"He's eating McDonald's.. again" I laugh to Caitlin and she laughs back.

***15 mins later***
I start to panic... my breathing goes funny... I feel like I'm going to be sick... I ignore it, I mean it's just nerves right?
Oh my fuck.... I can see him... he's running...
"Caitlin he's here oh my god"
"He's burning off the happy meal ahaha" Caitlin laughs when and we just crease up into laughter but he's getting closer to the office and I stop laughing and start to panic... he stands by the window and I turn around and he's there's. I pretty much run out to him and hug him and straight away I burst into tears.
"Don't let her cry" Caitlin whispers.
"Hey" I nervously say to alfie while holding him and we then head off walking.
"You alright?" He smiles and I nod.
We get to the lights and we say good bye to Caitlin as she walks home and we cross over the lights.
"I have to go to my nans real quick us that okay?" I ask and I stop.
"Yeah course" He reply's and I hugs him.
"I've missed you so much" I say as I break into tears and then laugh a little. He whispers same. We head across the road so we can cut through the cemetery, it's going so much better than I thought. I was scared I'd break down on the spot in front of him, he's still just as amazing as he was when I last saw him. I know if he takes me back I will never leave him again, I love him so fucking much and he means everything to me.
We stop near the end of the cemetery near my nans and he goes to kiss me and stops....
"I'm scared to get back into old habits..." he goes as he pulls away. I grab his collar of his school uniform and pull him into the best kiss I have had in so long. We kiss for a while and he starts to cry but he had a smile on his face so I ignore it and smile too. We hold each other closer than before as we walk to my nan's.
"I haven't exactly eaten today so you mind if I grab something to eat while I'm there."
"Of course, take as long as you need" I smile and he goes round the corner and I go into my nan's. I spend about 5 mins there and I walk out with a tube of Pringles and we head off back to his. This is probably one of the best days of my life.

*around 20 mins later*
We arrive back and Alfie's and he's gone to sort out chores and I check my phone. All that's on my phone is Callum's spam calls and text. Can't he just leave me the fuck alone... This is it, I'm breaking up with him for good....
Me: "we need to talk"
Callum: "whats up?"
Me: I'm breaking up with you, I can't deal with the constant arguing over the same thing every night, I can't dead with feeling like you don't trust me" and obviously I don't mention about alfie because he doesn't need to know it all. After I send that message I put my phone on silent and ignore him, I didn't realise I was crying a little until alfie can't back in the room and saw. I wiped the tears away quickly. Now I don't have to worry about Callum, I think I should try it again with Alfie, I need it more than anything ever.
"Hey alfie can I ask you something" I ask with a smile.
"Sure"
"Would you like to try us again? Will you be my boyfriend?" I'm really scared he's going to say no to be completely honest...
"I would love that more than anything" He reply's and we hug tightly with happiness. I don't think I've ever been so happy in my life.