Internet love can become real

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My dad tells her...
"IS THIS ALL IT WAS?! I THOUGHT IT WAS SOMETHING SERIOUS OR IMPORTANT!" My mum shouts.... so, now according to her I'm not important, self esteem raised 100% (not). I'm so scared of my mum, always have been especially when she shouts... In scenarios with loud noises like shouting I freak out and start shaking and breaking down intensely.
I run to the front room and I am the door shut... and I curl into a ball on the sofa crying and shaking, Alfie comes in and holds me close. He explains that my mum has a point but the way she reacted wasn't acceptable.
It comes to about 9pm and my dad drops Alfie home them he goes home him self.
I go upstairs with Sophie and I just sit down breaking down on the bed as she hugs me.
My mum calls me in and I walk in a lot calmer than I was and we start to talk. Her and lee keep saying "are you sure you just don't like girls? You don't have to be a boy to like girls" but the thing is I like boys and that's it, not girls.
I don't feel exactly safe with telling my mum stuff anymore, I never felt 100% comfortable but now I just don't feel safe with telling her anything anymore.
We talk for a while, I can quite clearly tell that she's not gonna support me. I didn't exactly expect her to support me at all but oh well.
After talking for a good solid 20 mins I isolate myself in my room and stay quiet, sophie knew I was still upset but in the end I ended up FaceTiming Alfie so that made me a lot calmer and happier.
That night I struggle to sleep, living in a non-supportive is really quiet hard.

***days later***
Well... this whole thing is going better than I expected, she keeps calling me her child and not daughter. Honestly it's so amazing. I never expected this. I kinda feel good about myself because of her. She always used to get me down... now she's making me feel good?!

Where I have all my other social media accounts as my new name I think I should make a new Facebook profile. I go to change it... I need my password... "shit" I whisper to myself as I try to remember my password...
Minutes go by and I can't remember it at all. I guess I should just open a new account all together.

Once my new profile is set up and I've found my friends I realise me, dad and Alfie are all going out for lunch so I message him about it and I begin to get ready. We head to my nan's for her birthday and we have a drink and something to eat and we then head to get Alfie. I guess after a hurricane comes a rainbow?