Who am i

Im just the girl that sits in the corner and cries herself to sleep. Some people ask me who i am, i dont think they care. I tell them, im a worthless piece of trash that everyone throws around like im nothing. The little girl frowned."what is your name?" The little girl asked. " i-i-im Sophie" i said.

" why so sad?" Asked the little girl.

" i-im a nobody, no one loves me". I said. " whats your name?" I asked

" im Alexa" she said. "Oh" i said.

" i know who loves you". Alexa said

"Who i asked". " i do" she said

Me: " but you dont know me?"

Alexa: " you dont have to know someone to love them, if they look hurt or abandoned you need to love them". Me: "but no body loves me,never will." Alexa: "do you want to be friends?" Me: "friends? I havent had a friend before." Alexa: "lets be friends then..tell eachother everything." Me: " ok..where do we start?" Alexa: "tell me about yourself."

Me:"well my dad dies when i was 4, my moms a stripper and a drug addict so i never see her, im always home alone, my mom abuses me when shes drunk, i have no friends, i try to commit suicide but...i f-f-fail everytime, so instead i just cutt to numb the pain." Alexa: "well im here for you, i do the same." Me: "tell me about yourself." Alexa: "my dad beats me every night he comes home..so i hide..my mom died 5 years ago from drug over dose, i have no life, i get beat and bullied everyday at school, i cutt because i hate people!!!!"

Me: "oh im sorry... A-atleast we have stuff in common." Alexa: "i just wanna end it all...now." Me: " ........me to...."

The next day i asked Alexa if she wanted to meet up...i waited for her to show, two hours later i was walking through the woods. I saw the ambulance and cops at her house. I started to tear up as i ran closer and closer to her house..her dad was sitting on the front steps sobbing..i went and stood by her dad, he looked so sad....the ambulance had come out with a body wrapped up and on a gurney, i wondered who it was....Alexa hasnt been seen anywhere...i followed the ambulance to the hospital. They tried to bring her back..but she wouldnt come back..then they said there wasnt anything left they could do......she was gone just like that....

I had gone to her house a few days later to pick up some stuff i had left there..i saw a note laying on her bed..it said... Dear dad, im sorry that it had to end this way..im just so tired if everyone hating in me because im Jewish, i was tired if you getting drunk and beating me..i love you, but it was obvious you didnt love me...i had one true friend..Sophie...i will miss you..love your little girl Alexa.

I ran to her closet i saw a ripe and a chair right in the middle of the floor. She had hung herself..i thought at her funeral i should say some words..so i wrote a uligy....Alexa was a good person with a heart, i only knew her one day and we became friends. She knew how to make you happy....when i didnt think anyone loved me..she said she did we became friends we shared everything..we had the same life style..i wish i could have gotten to know her more...i am proud to always call you my friend..i love and will miss you best friend....when i got home from the funeral i went to my room and decided i should be with my friend..her note described how i feel to..so i thought to myself for awhile, should i stay and be worthless trash, or go be with my friend who loves me..im staying here because she wants me to be happy and i want to make her happy, thats what true friends do.....

I love you Alexa...i miss you.........