Colby Brock instagram

The bathroom

Ava's pov

After seeing the comment saying they were dating I went to my bathroom and broke down in tears.

I grabbed my razor blade and thought about cutting. I just wanted this pain to do away tbh.

I called Colby and it went straight to voicemail. I left one last voice mail...

"Hey Colby... so I heard you and Shea were dating now. Congrats I guess... I still love you obviously but you don't care. I'm too depressed to do anything. I haven't ate, I haven't put normal clothes on, I cry myself to sleep every night cause what you've done to me. I moved out of the house and got my own place cause I couldn't deal with seeing you around let alone you and Shea. I grabbed my razor blade and I'm about to end it all cause I can't deal with this pain anymore... I kinda hope you find me before I do it but if you don't that's fine too. I'm also calling my best friend after so. I guess I'm saying goodbye for the last time. I really hoped I wouldn't have to do that. You make me go crazy I loved you so much and you broke me... so have a great life with her and your YouTube career. Once I go through with this the baby's at full term so they will take her out and I will just pass. Take the baby and love her with your whole heart cause she's gonna need you... I'm so sorry and I love you. Goodbye for now. Always and forever. At least I thought..." 
I hung up and decided to call my best friend. I left her a voicemail and hung up.

With that I grabbed a bottle of pills and a razor blade and I was ready. I put on my favorite outfit and thought about Colby one last time.  He was all I had...

I took half the bottle of pills and decided not to cut and just let the pills do there thing. I sat on the bathroom floor at the trap house with tears streaming down my face and thought to myself why I'm not good enough and waited for them to work.

I heard the front door open. Guess there all home. Everything went black and I don't remember the rest...

A/N
Damn I cried writing that.  Hope y'all enjoyed