"so where are you taking me next?" I asked
Our fingers locked together as we stare into the sunset, our feet dangling from a cliff with mcdonalds beside us.
"I'm taking you to a fancy dinner." He wrapped his arms around me
"But I'm not dressed for that, Joji." I laughed, keeping up an act.
"You don't have to worry about that."
he ran back to his car and got out a bag and inside it was..
was beautiful red lace—dress
"Wow that's- that's beautiful" shocked, my hands went through the hem of the dress
"Get changed in the car, I'll finish of our food and clean it up"
I did what he said and got out
"what do you think?" I showed of my dress, twirling
"Damn Y/N, you look so beautiful" he smiled, totally checking me out.
"Let's head to the fucking fancy restaurant"
...
"fuck, Joji. This place looks very expensive" I look around as we were headed to the table that Joji supposedly reserved for us
"And it is, love" he answered pulling a seat for me
"Good evening, love birds" the waiter jumped out of nowhere
"Good evening! For starters, we'll have the best wine available. We're still looking at the menu so you could scurry of and come back again" Joji said
The waiter nodded, "The best wine in town will be at your table right away"
The night went on; we talked about lots of crap and turns out we have more similarities than we thought! We both love hip hop and both hate pineapple on pizza
"Like, how the fuck can something so sweet that you can put in a fruit salad with cream and shit be put in and blended with something salty like cheese and bread" Joji blabbered
"I know, right?! It's a fucking joke!" I whole heartedly agreed
We went through our back stories and how our life was back home
"Okay so here's the thing, I never had a father" I said, dull, taking a shot
"I'm so sorry" He said as he refilled my glass
"Nah it's okay, I'd rather not see his face anyway" I shrugged my shoulders
"Okay enough about me! What about you?" I asked
"Well, my family was alright. They fed me and shit but were never home so I left when I turned 18. I don't think they realised I left for like a year and I have to do an interview for college" He took a shot
"Okay, I'M sorry" I cupped his face and wiped his tears
"Nah it's fine too" he smiled
He went on on how living alone made him creative and be a better person. However, his happiness changed when he met this girl;
"Yeah and after all of that I met a girl"
"A girl?" I asked
"Yeah, she's a bitch and I fucking hate h-her" his voice cracked
"Why? what happened?"
"I was inlove. So inlove with her. She makes me feel like I'm flying" He continued
"But in the end she left. She left me for someone else. After I gave her everything she could ever ask for, after I gave her all I have, ALL I COULD EVER HAVE, She left. Without a note, without a word." he sobbed after
"aw Joji" I leaned in, cupped his face and wiped his tears
"Ever since then, I've wanted to follow love. I want to learn what love is." He finished
He coughed, "You done with your food?"
"Yeah"
"Let's get going then" He left the payment for the tab and went inside his car
He dropped me off in the park where he picked me up and said his goodbye's
"Bye, Love. I had fun" He kissed me on the cheek
"I had fun too. Goodnight" I hugged him a little tighter than I used to and secretly dropping a letter in his passenger seat.
He drove off and I'm left here. Alone.
In my bag was a rope.
"Thank you, for everything you offered, life."
Joji's point of view
"The fuck did I just do" I whispered to myself
"What the FUCK am I feeling right now?" I started to shout
"Oh my god, I think I'm in.. in love?"
"Oh wow, I'm in love?" I stopped my car and turned back
I never knew I could ever learn to love again.
"I'm such a fucking dumbass!" I slammed my hand into the steering wheel
I went back to the sidewalks of the park to see if Y/N is still there and she's not.
Roaming around the neighbourhood only to find... nothing. Maybe she left town?
Something caught my eye, a note?
A note left in the passenger seat?
Joji
To my dearest Joji,
Hi, love! I genuinely fucking loved you, y'know?
Why can't you just love me back?
Why did you have to play with my heart like that?
but it's okay, I understand! In fact, I know. I know that I'm a nobody. Nobody would ever love a
nobody right? haha that's why I don't love my self!
lmao not pretty but witty hehe
Okay, enough with the fun part.
By the time you read this, I'm probably gone.
No, not out of town or shit. But you know, gone for good.
I'm sorry, I couldn't do it anymore.
But hey, thank you. Thank you for taking me away from that awful abusive boyfriend I had.
Thank you for actually making me feel good about myself for a moment.
You made me feel special.
I love you, Joji. I will always will.
"What?.... What the...WHAT THE FUCK?!" I sobbed, getting out of my car and running outside to get some air
"WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST DO?! I'M A FUCKING JERK!"
"I'M SO SORRY" I cried, falling down.
"I'm too late"
From the corner of my eye, I saw something... hanging.
oh my god
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Disciples of love ; joji x reader
Fanfiction"What is love to you, anyway?" "For me, love is non existent" -short story-
