rookie mistake | ksj ✓

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i kept fading in and out
trying to tell myself to stay awake

open your eyes
open your eyes
come on
keep them open
stop closing them
open your eyes
open your eyes
come on
keep them—

oh my god shut up
i heard a laugh beside me

my eyes widened easily at that,
clicking into the conscious world

seokjin was sitting on the hospital bed next to mine
he had on that little paper nightgown and everything

you look good
i smiled at him

i know
he said

i forgot you were cocky for almost a minute
i kept my voice quiet and kept my head facing the white popcorn ceiling

is your shoulder doing better?—

—what happened?
i interrupted him

he sighed.

did you get hurt?
i asked, unfaltering concern rung
against the 4 walls.

sorry
he said

what?
my head shifted to him now

he was supposed to shoot you.
he said, running his hands through his hair.

i couldn't form words.

kill you..
his voice was condescending

jasmine,
he said.

i didn't say anything.

rookie mistake.
he never blinked.

rookie mistakes get you killed.
he held up 3 fingers,
then dropped one
two left
one left

nurses begun inaudibly yelling in the hallway,
quickly running down the corridor with a familiar man
on stretcher

tall.

i sat up, ruffling in my paper sheets and pressing my hands against the cheap mattress to check if my eyes were deceiving me

i felt a sting in my forearm, which came to my immediate attention and i looked,
seeing the iv forked into my arm

seokjin sat in silence

my eyes traveled between the now empty hallway
and seokjin's still presence

so sorry,
he jut out his bottom lip