Murderer|| Suho Fanfic

-five-

"Sir , what do we do?" Donghyun asked, standing stone in front of heechul .

" kill him , it's not fun anymore to watch him rattle like a rat and beat around the bush , he isn't going to pay anyhow" Heechul stood up leaving after giving his orders .

The moment i saw her that night , something flicked inside of me and i unknowingly felt threatened by the way she made me feel . I felt threatened by the mere existence of such delicacy.

I despised her first for helping me without even knowing who i was , i hated how addictively soft her fingers felt against my skin and i most importantly felt hindered whenever i'd think of her . Whenever i'd think of how her fingertips felt against my skin , almost driving him crazy, I haven't felt this way in such a long time and it made me want her even more.

She was the definition of soft , everything in her made me want to hold her and i got angry at the thought .I was a god damn criminal , i went to prison several times for several accusations , why did i have to land an eye on such delicacy .

It broke my heart to see her drift tears and i regretted raising a gun on a human being for the first time in my whole life .

The next day i found myself asking Minseok for her address to apologise properly and it only got worse when she offered me to take the money , the way she made me feel concerned me in a way plotting someone's murder was easier and by that time i realised just how lean i got on her , how fondly my heart grew of her , she looked at me with those crystal orbs as a human and not a monster it made me doubt if her vulnerability in front of me meant something .

When i asked Minseok about her , he warned me to stay away and keep my monstrous selfish self away from her and i understood it only now i decided to ignore it .

Her cushion like lips felt like heaven against my chapped ones , the soft warm skin , the dewy plump cheeks and the fair skin , it all hollowed on my mind terribly , making me long for her when i knew she'd say no to everything i wanted to offer her until i saw the look on her face when her hands pressed against mine helping me ease the pain on my swollen hurt hand , i decided it was worth the shot when she wrinkled her nose in concern when i winced , i felt the world was worth it again.

I wanted her , more than anything i've ever wanted , i wanted her more than i wanted freedom that i was never getting .

The moment she left my sight , worry of what was coming after took over my head , numbing me.

If i don't pay Heechul , i am surely going down the drill and i needed to do something about soon or i won't be able to see my brothers and Seungwan again .

There i go adding her up in everything and anything .

The thought of me needing to pay back whatever debts i had took me back to the days i mercilessly raised guns at people and killed whoever i want whenever i felt angry , i was full of shit and i knew so , i was unable to contain all my furious hormones to myself , the first time i got involved directly and became a stable well known figure among the dreadful ones was when i was 19 , i leaded my first drug transmission and nailed it , it's when i knew that it was the job for me , i was convinced that it's what i needed to do to make a living , it got me more money than i thought i'd ever have , after all we lived homeless , roofless and full of stupid fears for the upcoming and the past .