Angel In Disguise

14: Jessica Olsan

Jessica Olsan #14

She was actually there; all happy and in front of me. Jessica Olsan, a girl from my 8th grade who i had a massive crush on. My best friend liked her too (she was the main reason i started to develop and have a gay crush).

 Jessica was a straight A student, with a perfect family and lots of love from a gigantic amount of friends. She was a teachers pets, and many people adored her from afar. I knew her from 5th grade, as she was a mutual friend. 

But in 8th grade, when my former best friend mentioned how she liked her, i agreed with her; only to get closer to my best friend who was just my friend back then. 

My best friend was quite a charm; people liked her instantly because of her cute personalities. she was so cute and short, that she was noticeable among all. Jessica spoke to her before me, obviously creating competition between my friend and I.

Was i not pretty enough; social enough; cute enough; smart enough for her to talk to me? 

Jessica did find out in the end that my friend and i liked her, but we had minimized our obsession with her by then: at least my friend had. I didn't though. You see, Jessica was always much more closer to my friend than i ever was, so i couldn't consider her as a friend of mine. That's why i never stopped liking her. She was actually my first love. 

Later in 9th grade, I stopped liking her because we didn't having classes with each other anymore. But i mean, I still got jittery feelings from her. She kind of ruined a year for me, making me insecure from what i was doing.

Now she was right in front of me, with a look of passion and confidence. "Hey... do I know you?" She questions with an obvious interest. "What? ... n-no" I hesitate. "Thought I'd know you" She giggles and stands up, offering me her hand. I try to hide my beating heart from myself, as i come in touch with her warm hand. 

"I'm Jessica, but you can call me Jess" she smiles. Wait, was she flirting with me? Because Jessica was quite confident and blunt, but she ONLY allowed her family members to call her Jess. 

"I'm Nick" I wave. She smiles widely. She comes closer to me and whispers : "Room 354. Come meet me sometime." Her seductive voice speaks as i get weirded out by her.  She holds a paper in her hand, and puts it in my front pocket of my tee, right beside my chest. I nod and run away from the office. 

My panting increased as I would not stop panicking about Jessica being in the same university as me; Being close to my room; and just being in England generally. I ran to my dorm, dodging people as they come across me; hearing mumbles of 'hey watch where your'e going; and occasionally muttering sorrys. 

Entering my dorm, i spotted Calum lying on his bed shirtless, texting on his phone. My phone vibrated in my pocket as i realised that maybe Calum texted me? I quickly turned my notifications off, amd my ringer off, as I cleared my throat, alerting Calum that i was in the room. 

"Hey.... you okay? Calum gets up from his bed, coming towards me. I nod quickly, but then soon sigh and mumble a 'no'. 

He smiles at my honesty, as he comes to sit next to me. I tell him about my first love, avoiding all topics of me saying 'gay'.