Love or Lust?

Mookie POV

All I remember is the nurses and doctors yelling and running. Then I completely black out.

I died.

I seen my grandmother and she stopped me. "Baby what are you doing here? You're not ready to come here yet." I started crying. "Grandma I miss you so much. I couldn't wait to be with you again." She wiped my tears with her soft hands. Oh how her hands was so soft and wrinkled and warm. "Baby listen, you are my eldest grandchild. You are not ready to come into the gates of heaven. You need to get back down there and continue living your life. You're now leaving Bella. How you think your father would react that he can't even be here for his own daughters death?" I shook my head. "Grandma I don't care. life is hard and I want out, so now that I'm out I'm staying here. With you, in heaven." She teared up. "Baby I love you. But I will not allow you to come up here. Not until you look old and wrinkled just like me." I chuckled a little bit. "When I was living, I did my best to make sure you had everything you could ever want. I took care of you like you were my child. And I'll be damned if I sit here and let you meet me here and you're only 18 years old. I'm making you go back there. I promise you, when it's your real time to come home, I will be here waiting for you. But you're not being welcome right now. Go back, and I hope this experience has opened your eyes because not alot of people have the chance to come back once they've seen the gates of heaven." And she disappeared. "Well who could have done this to my baby?" "Ma'am we're not clear on exactly what happened, but we truly are sorry for your lost. Our deepest condolences goes to you and your family." When the doctor said that I heard at least 5 people break down into sobs. "Mommy my sister not dead! She coming home!" Aw baby Bella. She always melted my heart. The doctor unplugged the machine and had the blanket down at my feet. I was trying my hardest to move or speak but I couldn't. Next thing I know I feel someone grab my hand and cry. "Man Mook, I never experienced this with any of my girlfriends but you did leave an impact on my life and for that I will forever love you." Omg it's tee! She kissed my hand and instantly I gained a little strength to do something. I breathed. Tee yelled "YO SHE JUST TOOK A BREATH!" and everyone instantly stopped crying and hoovered over me. "Get the nurse!" My mama yelled. My mother kissed my forehead and grabbed my hand. I squeezed it and I felt tear drops on my face. I opened my eyes and everyone was crying tears of Joy and smiling. I seen tee, ma, Bella, d, Trish, and scoop. The nurse came in "immediate family in only, everyone else please await in the waiting room" I was hoping tee could stay in here so I grabbed the strength to say tee stay. "Tee you stay." My mother said. I almost cried tears of Joy myself. "We're gonna be alright baby."

2 weeks later-
"Mmmmm give me my foooooood!" I said. "I'm starving babyyyy" tee started laughing. "Nah baby, not until the doctor goes home for the day. You know you can't eat regular food." I frowned. Somebody knocked on the door and tee went to open it. "Hey baby." My mom said as she walked in. She put her purse on the chair and sat beside me on the bed. "How are you feeling?" I nodded. "Hungry." My mom pulled out a big bag of hot fries from out her purse and handed them to me. "You better clean all evidence." And kissed my forehead. "Hey ma." Tee said. My mom walked over to give tee a hug. "Hey baby. How are you? You know you can go home if you want, I'll take over." Tee shook her head no. "Nah I'm alright. I want to stay here with my baby." And she walked over to give me a kiss. "Where's baby Bella?" I asked. "Your cousin Faye is in town. Faye took her to get a couple of outfits and some ice cream. Bella is still really sad about you not being home and Faye just done a little to get her mind off it." I got excited about my cousin Faye being in town. She's my favorite Latina big booty cousin on my mom side. Ever since I got shot, I grew a bond with everyone, simply because they was there. Trish, tee, d and I all came to an understanding. D and Trish are now together and tee has no problem with it because we're together and me and Trish became friends. I don't talk to d as much as I use too but she still checks up on me. "Baby I'm going to go home to clean myself up, gimmie bout 30 and I'll be back." She gave me a kiss and headed out the door. I looked to my mom. "Your stomach is getting bigger. You're keeping the baby?" She frowned. "Out of the 2 times I got pregnant, I kept both of my babies. You think I'm gonna get an abortion just because it's not by your father? It wasn't like I fucked him. I was raped.  I'm not proud to say it but my baby is innocent so why take it's life?" I shrugged. I know when my father finds out he's going to be very angry with chico. Maybe kill him. "Just don't think I'm babysitting cause you're trying to get your groove back." My mom instantly laughed. "I go to see the gender next week. I'll be glad to let you know what I'm having." She kissed my forehead and sat in the chair and started reading her book.