Hate You - Jinhongseok

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     you were my first love. you were my only love.

     things change, hongseok. things change.

     i can't go back in time and change the time we spent together. i can't go back in time and keep us from meeting. i can't go back in time and make myself not love you. i can't go back in time and warn myself of what you were doing.

     does it make you happy knowing that even though you ruined me, i still love you? nothing you have done, nothing you can ever do will make me love you less. i hate you, but god i hate myself more. 

     you destroyed me. everything you did was in vain. sometimes i think about what I could have been if you didn't do any of the things you did. if we had just been normal best friends. do you know how much better everything would have been? do you care?