Blind Love | Kim Seokjin, Kim Taehyung, Min Yoongi

Four - I Don't Smoke

Jisoo

Before I knew it, a month had already passed and within that month, I had to cover for Sunni at least twice a week. She would randomly leave work for an hour or two and ask me to not tell anyone that she wasn't in the building anymore. Sometimes she wouldn't even come back claiming that she wasn't feeling well or decided to work from home. 

I was thankful there wasn't much work for me to do when she leaves. It was just the usual grabbing coffee or ordering lunch for team meetings, copying and organizing files, and stocking up on supplies in the breakrooms or office areas. I have always wonder where she goes when she leaves, but she would silently smile towards me while zipping her lips telling me to keep quiet about her leaving. 

The thing about all this was that it seemed like even Jin, himself, didn't know that Sunni had left the office. He would excitedly come to her office only to find me and I would see his smile fading as he questions where Sunni went. I would have to come up with excuses for her and I felt horrible lying to Jin. I would often tell Jin that Sunni stepped out to meet a client or that she was running an errand for another project manager.

Though I dislike how Sunni neglected her job, I did like how flexible she was with my schedule. I had let Sunni know that I work night shifts at the bar and that it was a little hard for me to wake up at 6:00 AM to make it in to work at 7:00 AM. She allowed me to come into the office anytime after 7:00 AM, as long as I work my full eight hours for the day. I also get the weekend off where I can rest and focus more on my other job. It's not every day where you find a job that is willing to work on your time. So, I made the ultimate decision to stay and work for Sunni.

It was Friday evening when I had just finished running an errand for Sunni. Before leaving for the day, she had given me another month's worth of advance payment. I was on my way out of the elevator and didn't even bother to look where I was going. My eyes were on the white envelope full of cash that I just received from Sunni, wondering why she keeps paying me in advance. I ran headfirst into a hard chest. I quickly apologized before looking up and realized that it was Jin who I bumped into.

"Hi, Jisoo. How are you?" He flashed his killer smile at me and I found it hard to breathe in that instant. I've noticed for a while now that whenever Jin was around me, my heart would increase more than usual and I wouldn't be able to breathe properly. It was such a displeasing feeling because I knew that he was Sunni's boyfriend.

"H-hi Jin. I-I'm good," I awkwardly stuttered to Jin. He let out a cute laugh that sounded a lot like windshield wipers squeaking across the window, but it was one of the most beautiful laughs I have ever heard.

"I guess you must be done with your shift now huh? You have yourself a wonderful night."

I blushed feverishly and thanked Jin before wishing him a good night as well. I gave Jin a small bow and walked away from him. Once I was at a safe distance away from Jin, I found myself breathing normally again. I turn around to see him heading towards the elevator with a white plastic bag full of snacks and food. He must have picked up dinner for Sunni to eat while the two stay together after work. I suddenly felt dejected as I continue to watch him enter the elevator with that bright smile on his face.  

This is bad. I seem to have caught feelings for Kim Seokjin. Even though I see the two together all the time, I couldn't control the fastening of my heart every time he walks by or says hello to me. I couldn't control my breathing around him. His eyes were always looking for Sunni while mine were always looking for him. 

There had never been a time when I was still in high school that I wanted to be Sunni like the other girls, but at this moment, I actually wanted to be her. I wanted Jin to look at me the way he did her. I want his love. I want his smile to be only for me. I want to feel his touches and kisses. How wonderful it would be to be loved by Jin?