Headlights

10. Sweet Apocalypse

Peter, George, Calvin, Liam, Brian anybody else in boys were not proper with me, as I said before. They started to misbehave since 2 months; it was just so damn irritating, I was just enduring that.

By what happened, my temper reduced. I got angry even if they did a little shit and that was killing me inside. I got grounded again, I don't know for why!

Everyday when all the girls went home, I was left alone out. George took some walks with me, and tried to convince me for breaking up with Alex. I simply ignored this but I felt irritated about this. My birthday was upcoming.

I was lost in my own world, full of questions, dilemmas, it was just going worse day by day. I was unable to play baseball properly. I was unable to meet Alex properly. Nothing was proper, shit.

I usually, at that time, sat on a rotating chair I had & closed my eyes; imagining the answers of what if I broke up with Alex & what if I don't? What if I get caught again with Alex.

I thought I won't celebrate my birthday this year, so because of the bitterness coming along with Alex to my friends. George still stood in front of me making me understand that I'm wrong. I didn't know what the hell was wrong! If I was happy. She was happy. We were happy...

I was thinking all this sitting on my chair, when suddenly telephone rang.

I quickly rushed & picked it up! It was Liam.

"Dude, aren't you coming in this awesome weather to play football?"

"Football? Really?"

"Yeah, dude, it's an awesome weather to play, come down!"

"I'm counting on you!" Liam quickly said it & hung his phone back.

It made me a little, uh, more than little happy to hear that. I was still being cared off among so many people out there.

That was a good sign of a strong friendship again, I guessed.

Everything was surprising. Why everybody started to act okay, just okay with me?

I ignored the fact and just drilled into the moment.

At the end of evening, I met Alex.

"Why you didn't try to meet up!" She said.
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Then we broke up.
.
I only broke up with her.
The reason was misunderstood by her. I think for everybody.
I thought;
It was totally going out of control. It all was not at all alright.
"When you break up, listen to Taylor Swift. She'll be with you."
It was May, we completely absolutely broke the fuck up.

Gradually, everything was fine with my friends.
As I broke up, I threw all the things she gave to me away!
And, today is 18 December 2014 when I'm writing this.

Today everything's awesome. That 1 year was just a class of Economics, that I totally hate now.

I have all my friends and I'm fucking happy without her.
Now, I love everybody.

Beautiful.