The Girl Who Never Said Goodbye ( ON HOLD INDEFINITELY )

Chapter Five

Semi edited, you've been warned, this is my second attempt at writing ( the first one was trashed and to be rewritten in the future, so mistakes can be abundant )...As if someone cares.."P

It's the first day of a new hell. Yeah, you can't imagine how happy I am today, don't you? ( note sarcasm there ). A new school in the middle of the semester? I mean, who in their right mind would make such decision? It's hard enough surviving inside that damn school ( i'm talking about the other one if hadn't realized it yet ) without wanting to burn the whole place down but I'm trying my best and now this?

Are you fucking kidding me?

This is the most cruel joke ever. And to think that I was already in the midst of planning the social demise of a bunch of seniors who decided to mess with me; what a party pooper.

I had such high hopes on how it would all pan out; the reactions that they would make. That's the greatest gift I could ever give to all those bastards that hurt me as a graduation send away. They had the audacity to hurt me. Me, Anastasia Cleaver? I didn't become a queen bee before because of bullying and underhanded tricks. No, because that's just so cliche and stupid. I earned my title through hard work & that hard work was just taken away without a sweat from me just because of a tragic event that I couldn't do anything about. An event that killed the old me from the pain of it all. It was my brother for fucks sake! They shouldn't do this to me; treating me like the worse kind of criminal that there is.

I deserve their understanding and pity, not all the hate & scorn that they've sent my way.

How could they stomach all of those things that they've said to me? sleep well into the night from all the pain that they caused me? I'm breaking inside as it is, why do they have to drag me all the way down when I'm barely hanging on still?

Even my so called friends that made promises of being bestfriends forever dropped me like some used toy just because I became a social pariah in less than a week. That is 7 years of friendship right there that went up in flames. It made me wonder how I ever thought of them as friends when they never really thought of me as one as far as I and everybody at school knows.

People couldn't just leave people that they've shared a lot of memories with like that, right ? No, that's just impossible. Especially if that said person has been with you through thick and thin. Been there with you through every shit you've done, more so than the accomplishments that you've made. For just an empty title as " Queen Bee " being taken away from me, they left me.

How insignificant that made me feel. The people that I've invested time and memories with thought so small of what we shared. What made us bond in the first place.

Their betrayal stings, especially since its over something so insignificant as this. And yes it hurts, but that doesn't mean, that i'll be too weak about it to not make them pay.

I used to be a queen for a reason you know, & that reason they know all too well.

I don't have any reputation to uphold anymore neither. Heck, I could do whatever the hell I want. There's no reason to be good girl when I'm already in the lowest part of the food chain: there's nothing to lose anymore. So I'll be damned to let some narcissistic bitches walk all over me.