Ryan stud at the bus door stunned.
How much had he seen? This must me so bad. I started to sweat. It was his cousin for fuck sake and i just got here, i was a guest and im snogging his face off!
At first he looked shocked. I didn't know what to do with my self. I started to get worried. But then he did a devilish cheeky grin.
"Aye you! Get off our guest!"
Ryan laughed.
"Shut up you! You just get back to your Jackie."
Mike said in a sarky tone. Ryan blushed, he was so cute and shy. We all laughed and Mike put his arms around the both of us and walked us out of the bus and turned the lights of behind him.
That went better than exspected.
Feeling like everyone is staring at you is not great. Mike still had his arm around us both when we went into the tent, there was still alot of the crew in there eating pizza and gossiping. But then he let us go and hugged me and waved goodbye. Befour Ryan could go anywhere i pulled him aside softly.
"Uno befour... Its just, we like each other.. no... i mean yeah. Of cource we do, i mean... you saw. Well what im..."
Ryan interrupted. He looked more embarrassed than i was by the colour of his sweet face.
"It alright. No harm done. Just because he's my cousin doesn't mean you have to feel bad."
I breathed out in relief.
"Sorry. I just feel like, i dunno. Like i belong here and i dont want to get to attached to anyone. Because this isn't going to last long."
A frown took over my face and the thought of going back to my normal life and leaving here and everyone made me sick to my stomach. I started to pale and Ryan looked worried like this morning when i fainted.
"Are you okay?!"
I bursted out into tear
"I dont know... im so sorry. Its just the thought of leaving you and Ben, Mike, everyone! I wanted this for a long time and ino it selfish but i just don't want to let you go."
Hot, salty tears flooded down my cheeks and my eyes felt sore and sesitive. My head ringed and my body felt numb.
"Lila you have still got us."
Ryan wrapped his arms around me in a shy hug and i did the same. It felt good to be close to him.
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The life that I once lived... Macklemore fanfiction
FanfictionThe life that i once lived has changed. For the best? I'm not quite sure. My life was so normal. But not now. And i know i cant go back. Lila was a average 23 year old woman. Trying to live with her past, regrets and love life. But what she did tha...
