The life that I once lived... Macklemore fanfiction

chapter 10 ~ The mental hospital

My vision was hazed and i wasn't sure where i was. I felt numb inside. And my head let out piercing screeches that drummed at my skull.

"Where am i? What's happening?"

I stuttered.

A woman with glasses and boring, black hair came up to me. I recognised her.

"How are you feeling now Lila? You had a panic attack, again. Your at the mental hospital. Do you remember me for last time? Im Dr Miller"

Looking around me i was in a white room on a white bed. Im sure this is the same room they took me last time. The woman sighed when i didn't reply. I could remember now what happend and why it happend, but i was not going to tell her.

"Keeping it from me is not going to help. We know your past Lila. It was not great, but we just need to know. Was it about..."

She paused and lowered her voice.

"Your dad? Lila?"

I looked straight into her dull eyes.

"You know nothing about my past! Im ready to go now."

I demanded. I leaped out of bed and i stumbled back, what had they gave me? Although i felt dissy i carried on walking out of the mental hospital untill i reached out side.

Taking a deep breath of fresh air; i sat down on a brown wooden bench. This time i didnt cry. Instead i started to die inside realising i had lost them. My idols. They took me away from Ben and Ryan. And i would never see them again.

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It was eleven twenty five am when i heard the door of the mental hospital burst open.

Someone sat down next to me on the bench but i didnt take notice of who it was. Until the person put their arm around me. It was ben. A rush of relief and happyness took over me aswell as embarrassment. I remembered he was the one to found me. He saw my cuts and heard my screams and wiped away my tears. He must think i am a freak. I pushed his warm body away from mine.

"Get way from me! Im a freak, just go!"

Shouting in his face. At first Ben looked sad and confused. But then he smiled at me.

"Your not a freak, your beautiful. Your perfect Lila."

I lay my head on Ben's shoulder while he comforted me. Gentally her stroked my hair. Then he cupped my face and made me look at him.

"Lila, you dont have to tell me, but what made you do it? I thought you was happy. Was it... Because of me? Was it too much?"

Ben looked really sad and guilty.

"No, no. Your fantasic. I did it because i was thinking about"

i shuddered.

"My dad."