Sam's Blade...

Chapter 4 "I can't take this anymore!"

Beep beep beep beep

Was that my alarm? I honestly was about to stand up and begin my morning routine, before everything hit me. Last night, I tried to kill myself although the details were still vague. I have a pounding headache ( I know I want to die, but I forget why.... ) Clearly I wasn't successful. I wanted to be dead, I didn't belong here. I'm a pain in everyone's ass, I find a way to fuck everything up, plus I nearly killed the guy I like or maybe even love...

I opened my eyes slightly to see Luke playing flappy bird, could he turn down the volume at least? Judging by the sound he wasn't very good, I could see frustration in his eyes. I think he almost broke his phone.

Danny and Ava had worried faces. I feel bad they now have two teammates in this gloomy place. How did I even get here? Was it Danny? He was the only one I told. But how did he get to me in time? Him and Ava were talking to what appears to be a doctor, they keep glaring at Peter and I, pointing, followed by disappointed looks upon their faces.

However, I looked to my right. My heart sank, I didn't believe what I saw. I didn't want to believe my eyes, but I have no choice. Peter was laying in the bed next to me. He was still breathing, his chest rose than drifted back down. He had so many thing attached to him, I think there called IV's but I have no clue, I'm not the doctor here!

Peters eyes were closed, he looked lifeless. I wanted to believe he was sleeping but somewhere deep down I knew he was in a coma. My eyes now over flowing with tears, this was all my fault. What if he died, and he never knew how I felt. The webhead even has an abilty that allows him to heal faster, but I dont think that was helping.

I guess the team noticed I woke up, because they bolted towards me. That wasn't bad, but then they started asking a million questions. ( now when I say a million I mean a MILLION! )

The only person who didn't rush over and start asking these stupid questions was Danny. He already knew. I started to feel overwhelmed with all these questions. Like:

"Sam why did you do this?"

"How long have you been depressed?"

I didn't know how to respond, I just couldn't take it anymore. This is my buissness not yours, so I yelled "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Then I started crying into my hands. Jeez crying wasn't the right word. I started balling and hyperventilating. Luke and Ava were in shock, they've never seen me cry. They know me to be the cocky, arrogant, and silly jerk. Not someone who has actual feelings. Not someone who cries himself to sleep every night. Not someone who self harms, or even attempts to kill himself. They've never seen this side of me before, actually no one has. besides who would i tell? my family isnt here.....and my team i wish they never found out. truth is, i have trust issues, and this makes me feel weak and vulnerable.

They tried to comfort me but that didn't work, it only made me feel worst about everything. I couldn't handle their bullshit anymore. I ripped out all the IV's, and grabbed my conveniently place helmet. Seriously why would you put the ONE thing that gives me powers right next to me? Especially when I'm suicidal?! I put my helmet on, and flew. Leaving my shocked teammates behind I left before anyone could stop me. I flew fast, with the hot tears streaming down my face. I couldn't fly as fast as normal, I was already straining by body. Fury is going to be mad later.

I didn't know where I was flying to, I just couldnt look back at least, for now. I needed time to think. I just hope my team will relize that before they send out a search party. I dont understand why they care so much, underneath this helmet I'm nothing but a piece of shit. Tears filled my eyes once more.

I landed on the same rooftop where I had told Danny everything. Deep down I wanted him to find me, since he was the only one that knew. Although I would never admit that. I took off my helmet, allowing my costume to disappear. It was nice to have no worries, watching the sun set was so calming and relaxing. Why can't my life always be like this? My life is so complicated, And I don't deserve it.

I still have so many questions.

How did I get to the hospital?

What's wrong with peter?

Will he make it?

Does he like me?

Does my Team know I'm depressed?

Urg! I need answers.... But I don't want to face my team. I'd be mortified......

Iron fist's POV

Sam stormed out of the medical Center, after Luke and Ava started bombarding him with a million question. Can they get any more stupid? Oh wait they can? They placed his helmet right next to his bed! That helmet allows him to fly! Know who knows where he went. I didn't exactly, but I had my suspicions.

AUTHORS NOTES:

Will Danny find peter? OoOoO the suspense..... Anyway, do you guys like it so far? Should I change anything? Please leave some feedback.