destiny? seriously?!

prologue

Choon hee's p.o.v

'ring ring!' 'ring ring!'

I grabbed my phone as I heard a drunk cheung kyung in the phone again know is my time!

I ran across the halls and jump inside a taxi I waited for a couple minutes its more like 30 minutes or so but I finally made it.

I looked at the mirror view from the side of the taxi as I put on make up I think I had too much lipstick and eye shadow? But I didn't care cause I was in a hurry.

My glasses were falling down but gladly I put it on again.

I think I look ugly but I cant do anything my eye bugs are just wide and open.

I keep running and running and running as if it was my last from blackpink.

I ran and ran until... I stopped and.... I was too late....again...

She was kissing him and he was kissing back with no problems huh.... Why oh why can't I just have a chance to confess to him.

Literally everything I need to go to him she is always there?! Like I know you guys are couples in pinocchio? And won several awards in acting? And was caught hanging out by reporters causing a scandal that was broken immediately?!

But cant I just have Korean drama with him like I know your famous in all but right know im breaking the fourth wall?!

Aish! I expected this to happen anyway... Huh.... It always happen since birth.

Like when we we're kids and I had a big crush on him?

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Flashback 18 years ago

Little choon hee 's p.o.v

I walked slowly towards him while holding a teddybear as an offering for him loving me.

I just know that he will love me!  I had it deep inside my gut! I have transformed into what he really likes about girls!

A beautiful long brown haired girl with blue eyes and pale skin and a skinny body!

Literally when I was 5 years old I dyed my hair brown and wear blue contacts and I lock myself in the freezer I just dont know how im still alive and I haven't eaten anything but carrots literally just carrots nothing else I have vomited 16 times and have been in the hospital for about 30 times and ive turned green at times I still don't know what symptoms I have but the doctor's said I was fine I was just having problems with everything I eat.

I feel messed up so let us not talk about what happened to me when the doctors couldn't figure out what to do to me so they put me in area 51 where I saw aliens and monsters and stuff.

Anyways I'm literally any mans dream and even his dreams!

I walked slowly as I smiled to myself like a crazy kid on weekends?? Im very motivated and excited I couldn't wait any longer so I just runned very fast but not that fast just fast.

I made it and saw him ~ but... Who is that female girl?  Beside him that keeps on holding his hands.

It made me crazy and evil mwuhahhahaha! So I grabbed a bucket of water and was about to splash her when....

I saw his face... He was happy there was no trace of discomfort?  He was cool with it and very excited about it.

I couldn't do anything but watch and feel pathetic cause I have never seen him this happy... well except whenever his around me like he thinks of me as a friend but he never gets excited whenever I do something special for him his just happy to be with me as a bestfriend.

Huh.... Know I look like a villainess from an otome game I should just be happy on who he choose and move on.

I should really think about how a 6 year old could think like this without anyone teaching her?

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And it happened countless of times even when I was a teen

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Flashback 8 years ago

Teen choon hee 's p.o.v

The bells rang as I smiled and ran across the hallway until I was in the middle of the gate of the school.

People passed by me each second intesepates me to see his face.

Today is the day where I confess to him my thoughts and feelings and even my intentions.

I really love him and each year this love will spread across my body through my head,lips,ears,nose,organs,ovary,egg cell,bones,vein,heart,stomach and even *censored* what the heck did I said to be censored?! I just said my inner core? Was it that gross?

I laughed as I smiled again like a lunatic who's in love.

I smiled as I played with my fingers while holding the teddy bear from last time as my offering for giving me his love.

I have change into someone new know!  Apparently he doesn't like beautiful girls!  he actually likes smart girls.

So I have studied everything from the library and even at other libraries and even bell's library from beauty and the beast.

I also did all my homework and studied every minute of my time of course that earned me a couple of eye bags and freckles and sniffing constantly andddd...apparently I have to wear glasses know because I have been reading for quite a year.

I look like a nerd know... But!  I'm smarter than Albert Einstein!

I smiled and giggled as I eventually saw him I ran across the parking lot and to witness him.... With her again.

There stood hae won and cheung kyung holding hands while having a make out session in the streets like wtf?! 😭😭😭?

That female woman keeps on clinging on him everytime I'm in love with him like is this magic? Is hoodini in this story?

Why is it that everytime im in love she! Always clings on him and loves him like his a parent and shes the child and im the Unlove sister?

This isn't fair at all!! Like....

Jin: s.t.o.p!

Jungkook & Jin: I.T!

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Back to my p.o.v

I mean like everytime and every minute of myself I feel unrelated with him? Im his bestfriend for God sake!

I feel like he doesn't even care about my feelings?  And...it hurts me a lot the more I know im honestly screwed as always?

I don't even care anymore I expect him to not like me anyway honestly the more he clings into this girl the more I get separated from him?

I love him with all my heart but?  Appreciation just hates me the most!!!  Why does love hate me!!!!

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Thank you for reading im sorry for the wrong grammars