I love you, please stay (Sad Beronica)

Fate

Previously:
"Well that's okay you got a new gbf! Me!" She looks at me shocked. "Well more like a bisexual best friend...but that doesn't sound as cool" I laugh at my stupid joke but see it made her smile. She hugs me. "Oh Ronniekins" I smile and hold her as we watch the rest of the movie.
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(Betty's P.O.V)
It's been a few weeks since Veronica and I had that incident with jughead and how we became friends, and kissed. Her and i have been getting really close, i think i might like her but i dont really know. I'm actually really happy with her, I barely feel alone and no one bully's me anymore. Veronica, Toni, Cheryl, and I were sitting in the lounge area at school when we see jughead walk in. "What is he doing here I thought he went to south side high" I whisper to Ronnie. "i don't know, but just ignore him" she whispers back.  "alright, lets get to biology." she nods as we say our goodbyes and walk there. We sit in our normal seats as everyone floods in. "alright students, settle down! I have an announcement to make! Since the last project when amazing with the partners you have now, you will be doing another project, on the human body and the systems of it! so start discussing with your partner!" veronica and i look at each other and smile. "guess ill be going over to your house ronniekins." i say as we open up the computer i have and look at the systems in the body, veronica starts to draw out what we are going to do. God we make a great team. B & V. The bell rings meaning we are now dismissed for the day, since biology is at the end of the day and veronica and i get to her house, i wave to her mother and we walk up stairs and get to work. After a few hours of working ronnie and i start to get bored. "Ugh...this is boring" I look at her she walks over to where i was sitting on her bed, she sits on me facing me. "r-ronniekins?...what are you-" she stops me from talk "Im bored...i kinda want to do something fun.." she starts to lean into me and before i know it she kisses me, i hesitate for a second then pull her in closer and began to kiss back. "betsikins....." that's all she could say before she lays her head on my chest and just sit there. "ronniekins....i-uhm-i love being around you, you make me happy, even if we are sitting in silence, i enjoy it, as long as we are together.." I say trying to tell her i lover her but not being so blunt about it since i was scared of what might happen. she looks up and kisses me again. "I-I love you too, betsikins." we smile at each other, admiring the sight of one another, holding each others hands. silently. i just want to kiss her all day and night, she makes me so fucking happy. "hey, girls dinne- oh uhm whats going on in here?" I hear ronnie's mother say from the door way, we both froze up. "u-uhm....hey mom" I hide behind ronnie as ronnie gets off of me. "Dinner is ready..." her mom smiles. Ronnie looks at me. "after we eat i should get going." i say ronnie nods, maybe this was a mistake i can't let anyone find out. I leave after we eat and go home.
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It's been three days since ronnie and i kissed and told each other that we Loved each other. I haven't spoke to her since, i've just been hanging with archie and toni, veronica has tried to talk to me but i would avoid her, since finished the project that day, we handed it in and i wouldn't even look a her during bio. I feel bad for ignoring her and avoiding her but i can't keep doing this, if my family found out i'd never be able to even talk to toni, or anyone, she'd make me drop everyone and stop going to riverdale high. I'd rather suffer and not be happy with ronnie, then lose everyone else due to me being stupid. "Hey betts" Toni says at lunch getting me out of thought when i noticed i was looking at veronica and cheryl. "yeah toni?" i ask trying to keep my eyes off ronnie. "Is..everything okay? you haven't been with veronica all week and you seem to always give an excuse to leave when she comes close." I was afraid of this question. "To be honest toni....something did happen, i don't want to avoid her, but if my mother ever found out what happened, i'd never be able to be near anyone, EVER, again...and i am also not ready for people to know what happened....i miss ronnie...i really do..." Toni grabs my hand and i look down.  "if there is anything i can do to help, tell me, betts, you deserve to be hap-" she gets cut off by veronica coming over here. "Betsikins? can we please talk..." I start to walk away when ronnie grabs me and turns me to her, me crying. "Did..i..do something? betty?" I shake my head. "Then why are you avoiding me?" I look at her still crying. "I-I'm scared ronnie...I'm scared we might have to...never...speak..again, because of my mother, she can't find out what happened, friday night, that's why i left so early. I thought it would be easier to avoid you, then get hurt, but in reality, it hurts more now, i haven't felt so hurt, since well, you telling me that im worthless and i should just kill myself, awhile back. Everything i said that night, was true though, i really do-Ronnie i feel like fate threw us together that day in bio because we were meant to be something....you were the light i needed to survive, yet 5 weeks ago, you would've been the thing to kill me, now it kills me to be away from you...I just don't think i was ready for what happened, not yet, maybe later...but for now can we forget everything that happened friday and just be, B & V? I can't believe that this would ever be a thing to happen to me..." I say then whisper to her. "I'm falling even more in love with you, than i ever thought i would..." I look at her to see she is in tears, she gets closer to me and hugs me. "I love you betty...I will be here fro you for everything...Please, next time, don't avoid me, that hurt me a lot, I've always have liked you...that's why i bullied you, i was afraid, i didn't know what to do, and when we were partnered, it felt like fate for me too, i could finally change things around, but when i saw the pills and razors in your bathroom, i knew what i did to you was fucked. Please stay...i need you." Ronnie grabs me and holds me tightly, both of use crying, toni was sitting there now knowing why, but i don't care, toni is the only person besides ronnie i can trust, i cant even trust archie.