drama again get ur tish 😥
J's pov
i went back to the park and search for a small place that no one could ever find me . yeah i'm scared , what if i die and nobody found me ? but .. i don't care .. i'm sure there's at least one person will found me . ahhh what i'm talking about ?! i sat on the grass behind the tree , no one will see me . i pull out the knife that i just bought . i once cut myself and it's hurt .. but now , i'll do it again and just hope i'll really dead . suddenly , my phone rang . there's a lot of miscalled from dylan . ahh what did he want from me ? it's over already . i off my phone . it's the time .. i put my arm on my knee and take the knife on it .. here we go .. one.. two ... thr..
" jackson ! stop ! " fuck ! there's Dylan !
" go away ! " i yelled . how did he found me ?!
" baby please don't . i'm begging u " he kneeling in front of me .
" i'm not ur baby u bullshit ! ignore me ! u can go with ur other love ! " as i said that i immediately put the knife on my skin but Dylan's too fast . he hold my hands thightly before i could ever cut myself .
" let me go ! let me go ! let me go ! " i tried to run away from him but he's so strong . he pull me into his hug .
" baby please .. listen to me " he said slowly .
" no ! i don't need any explaination . i'm done with u ! i'm done with ur lie ! i'm done with everythings ! let me just die ! " i screamed so loud . everybody in this park looked to us . luckly,it's just few of them .
" no u need to hear me .. it's just a prank baby .. nothing is real . the message that u read before , it's just a prank .look ! there is he " Dylan leads his finger to one guy that standing not so far from us . yes he's not lying . that the guy that i saw before .
" whatever u say .. i'm done with u .u can just make it real . let me go" my tears drop .. why .. did he thinks this funny ? fuck off ! i struggle myself to escape from him and i'm manage ! i put the knife back on my wrist . he come closer to me .
" don't move ! " i yelled . i stares at him . this is the last time i would see him before i end my life .
" jackson please no ! i love u ! baby please " i love u too but .. u made me believe that this is all a lie !
" i .. i don't deserve u .. i don't deserve to be happy even for once . thanks for being in my life and made me happy even i know .. this is not real .. " he step closer to me . i step back . why can't he just let me go ? he already found his real love . i quickly put the knife and want to pull it on my wrist but it's happen too fast .. once again , dylan's hold me but i'm not giving up .. the knife in my hand got wild .. i don't know .. what have i done but .. all i see that .. the knife .. already .. cut .. Dylan ! on his stomach ! there's a lot of blood coming out from his stomach .. suddenly , there's a lot of people went to him and hold him .. he looks so pale .
" Jackson ... " that's all i heard before he got faint . what have i done ? it's not suppose to be him ! it's should be me who was dying right now .. then , the ambulance came and took Dylan to the hospital . the nurse told me to follow them . along the ride , dylan's bleeding .. non-stop . oh god this is all my fault .. i'm useless i'm cruel . he'll never forgive me ..
" wait here okay " the nurse told me and take dylan to the emergency room . im waiting there .. alone .. for almost an hour .
" hey .. " i looks to the voice . that's the guy that Dylan text before . i ignore him .
" hey , i'm sorry .. i just want to tell u the truth .. please .. listen to me " he stand in front of me . i nods .
" sit " he introduce himself . he's kevin .
" first of all , it's not Dylan's fault . it's our fault " i looks at him .
" our ? "
" yes .. huh .. i'm his friend .. u never know me before because i never meet u . last week , we played a game .. and all of us i mean Dylan's friends dare him to prank u "
" cheating's prank ? "
" yeah kind of . i'm sorry i don't know it can turn out like this " his face was so guilty .
" i'm begging to u , forgive him . it's all my fault i'm sorry " he kneeling in front of me .
" stand up " he nods and sit back beside me .
" i forgive u . u don't have to feel guilty . i'm the one who should feel that .. i almost kill him .. let's pray he's fine " i let out the deep breath .. i already called his parents .. i'm sure they will mad at me . finally , the doctor come out .
" where's his parent ? " she asked .
" not coming yet " i said .
" and who are u ? "
" i'm .. i'm his friend .. " i can't say i'm his boyfriend anymore because i'm not . he'll never forgive me .. it's all my fault .
" and u ? " he asked Kevin .
" i'm his friend .. too " he looks confused at me .
" huhh .. okay then .. let me tell u " we nod.
" he have such a bad wound and he lost a lot of blood . but luckly , god love him . he's stable right now " i wraps my face . thanks god !!
" can i visit him ? " i asked impatiently .
" yes u can . but after that we'll remove him to the patient room " i nods . i quickly went to him .. oh goshh .. he looks so pale . my tears start to drop .. a heavy one . he's still in the coma . i sat beside him .. Kevin don't come with me , he want to wait for Dylan's parents.
" Dylan .. " i called his name weakly .. he not suppose to take this .. it's all my fucking fault .. why did he have to face this ? he's the kind human ever .. suddenly , i heard someone's crying out loud . then i saw his parents come in .
" what u had done to my son ?! " Dylan's mom yelled at me . i drop my face .
" tell me !! " she went closer to me , and beat my chest .
" patient please ! be patient " Dylan's dad hold she thight .
" i'm sorry .. it's all my fault . i'm sorry " i can't see their face . it made me more sad .
" u don't deserve him u bitch ! how could u do that to my son after all he gave to you ! " she keeps yelling at me . i nods . i know that i know that .
" go away from here and never come back ! i will never forgive u ! " i finally crying . i want to be by his side . i love him ..
" i'm .. i'm sorry again .. i'm " she cut me .
" shut the fuck up and get lost ! " he push me to the wall .. awww that's so fucking hurt .
" Mrs Geick please be patient that's not all his fault " Dylan's dad hug she and made she away from me .
" i .. will go .. i'm sorry .. but give me a .. last chance .. to look at him " i'm sobbing . he nods . i went to Dylan . his calm face made me feel bad . uhh ..
" i will go Dylan . for ur own good sake . u don't deserve me .. i'm the worst .. i hope that .. u'll find another guy that can treat u better than me " i kiss his forehead . the longest one . i will never have a chance to kiss u again .
" thank you for giving me a chance to feel happy before . i love u " i looked at him . bye baby , i will always love u . uhh i let out a deep breath .
" get out ! " she said angryly . i nods then went out from that room .. huhh .. i lost my other half .
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i'm literally crying !!
