lies//ethan dolan

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-lily-

After the encounter with Louis and him telling me that Ethan and I might be falling for each other and stayed to myself. I haven't left my apartment in days. Actually, I haven't gotten up from my bed. 

I don't have him to fall for me. I have too many problems. He won't be able to handle them all. He's going to be hurt in the end after all. I don't want to see him hurt. He has a pure heart of gold that shouldn't experience pain.

I've been ignoring everyone. Whenever my grandma knocks I just tell her to leave me alone. She's been listening but I think she's starting to notice something is up. She knocks every two hours but she hasn't knocked in four.

My phone has been blowing up with calls. I still haven't checked it, but I know they are from the twins and Louis. I groaned and shoved my face into my pillows.

The day I talked to Louis and how he explained to me that we might be falling for each other I wanted him to take me to the apartment.

"Lily, it's obvious," Louis said buckling up. "First off, you said that, 'Ethan always wants to be near you and make sure you're okay.' Am I right?"

I nod and think about it, "I might be because of what I told him, Louis. He wasn't acting like this that much before-"

"'that much'! Lily! You said that much. Meaning he still acted like it. I'm not going to ask what you told him but I know that he's acting like it more because, as you said, he wants to make sure you're safe. He cared about you before, and he still will. You telling him whatever you made him realise that he doesn't want to lose you."

I soon grow frustrated, "Maybe because he pity's me! He probably keeps making sure I'm alright because he pity's me and feels as if  I'm his responsibility!" I yell, "He never acted like he was in charge of me and he is! He is acting like if something happens to me I'm his responsibility and he will be blamed for!"

The ride was silent after that, and it wasn't comfortable. It was probably one of the most uncomfortable rides I've ever experienced.

My phone rings signalling I have a phone call. I get up from under the pillows and check who it is.

Ethan.