Love Triangle

~ 7 ~

Jian's POV

He answered within a second of me calling him.

"JIAN! OH MY GOD!"

He sounded devastated and relieved at the same time. I wanted to cry but I had to hold myself back for at least some time.

"h-hey justin...."

"Please don't ever do that to me again Jian Lawley! You hear me!! I was so worried... I thought maybe something bad had happened to you..."

"Don't worry, I'm okay. Well, kind of...."

"What happened? I mean Dan told me you went home but why? You need to tell me everything!"

Oh how I wish I could tell him everything. But I guessed it was a good idea to start with my breakup.

"So uh... well the morning before, Annabelle and met up" I gulped. "W-We broke up..."

I couldn't hold the tears back anymore now.

"Oh my god Jian... I'm so sorry."

Justin sounded like it hurt him almost as much as it hurt me. That's why I hated telling him... It hurt me so much to see him upset or in this case, hear his upset little voice.

"I'm such a failure Justin... I never do anything right... all I do is hurt people! YOU SHOULD HATE ME! I don't deserve you... all I do is make things worse..."

I suddenly got shocked at myself for shouting at him... I heard him crying through the phone. I had made my Jay cry... God, I really was an awful person.

"You've changed Jian... you've changed.... I'm only calling because I care about you god dammit! Please don't ever say or think something like that again... you know I love you" - my heart skipped a beat at him saying those words. Even though I knew he obviously didn't mean them in that way.

"You aren't alone Jian.... I'm always here for you, we all are. Maybe not physically right now but you can always call me. I'll be there in a week anyway, remember?"

My face instantly lit up a little. I had totally forgotten about him coming for a visit soon over all the negative emotions.

"Thank you so much Justin, I really don't know what I would do without you."

"Me neither Jian, please don't ever forget that I'm always there, you can tell me anything"

Oh how I wished I could. I wanted to tell him so bad that I was in love with him but there was just no way I could do that. He wouldn't understand it... and he'd hate me.