Love Triangle

~ 3 ~

Jian's POV

Why was I like this? It's not like Justin and I were a thing, it shouldn't matter if he was with a girl but it did... it mattered so much that I left the mall crying that day. I didn't answer any calls or even leave the house.

I was ashamed of myself for being a coward, for being so messed up and protective over Justin. I should be happy for him, instead I'm sat here feeling bad for myself and being problematic to everyone who actually cared about me. I didn't deserve them, I didn't deserve Justin... why would he even like me back, he was my straight best friend. I felt like an idiot.

I decided that I should get out of the house, I had already wasted two days of my life sitting here my dorm.

I walked out and looked up at the stars and instantly thought of Justin, he loved looking at the stars as much as I did. I loved as he went on and on about the amazing balls of light. That was of course was before I realized how I felt about him. I couldn't even be with him as friends anymore, I just wanted to kiss him, feel his lips on mine, have him hold me close... and that wasn't what friends did together. Especially after being friends for 15 years....

I cleared my thoughts and decided to go to bed, it was 9:30 pm and I decided that I'd be productive tomorrow weather I liked it or not.

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The next morning I woke up early and went to Annabelle's dorm. We decided to go for a picnic lunch on campus grounds since we didn't really want to pay to go to the city.

I sat down under a tree as she took out the sandwiches she had made for the both of us.

"Here you go J" she said passing me a sandwich. I took it and started eating it, my mind started to drift away again as Annabelle sat beside me with her sandwich.

I looked at her.... it wasn't fair to her, I hadn't talked to her in days and she's just acting like everything's fine, was she not upset? She should be mad... "Why aren't you mad??" I said without thinking.

Startled, she looked at me. "Mad?" He asked.

"Yeah mad... I haven't replied any of your texts in days and you're still being so nice to me, why's that?"

"I mean... I just love you, so much. I couldn't be mad at you.." she smiled and leant forward for a kiss as I moved away.

"Jian are you alright?" She said and took my hand. I pulled away once more.

"I...I...I'm just... I'm sorry" I stuttered as I got up. I felt a tug at my arm preventing me from moving away.

"What do you mean J?"

"I... it's nothing" I said pulling away from her. "You wouldn't understand"

"I can try to"

"You won't"

"Please Jian...."

"I don't love you anymore Annabelle... I'm sorry.. I don't deserve you, there are so many other boys out there...th-.. they'll treat you better." I said tearing up. She stood up about to hug me but I moved away.

"Jian..."

"No" I shook my head; "I'm sorry but I can't do  this anymore Annabelle" I looked down and started walking away, trying not to burst into tears once again.