Wild Girl

[15] Impossible Task

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Lifeless. Careless. Dull. Dry. Cold. It was me. I did not care for my surroundings, my mind was fixed on Kira, and no one else.  I haven't managed a smile, a grin or any act of joy. I slowly walk to the barn and find Kira's empty stable. I walk inside and sit, my head leans against the cold wall, without her it is even colder. I close my eyes and let the tear spill out of my eye. I shut my eyes, allowing them to flow even harder. I lower my head and rest it on my knees, which I bring up to my chin. I sob quietly and it seems quite weird to be alone at this stall. I see something white on the ground and reach out for it. Her hair. I allow a tear to spill on the mane, making it wet. I move my head back, resting it out of reality. I never felt this way, I never will feel this way. I tuck the hair between my hands and leave her stable. I wipe the tears and tear stains with a back of my hand. I sigh an encouraging sigh and eye Swiftfire, which slowly nickered at me. I walk to him and let him sniff my hand. I have to get Kira out of my mind. I open the stall doors and walk to his back, without warning him and throw my leg over his back and settle on his tensed back. He rears, he was without warning. I tuck my self to his neck and bow down. I give him a squeeze and he dashes out of the stall and barn. He had his ears pinned back and he ran through the crowd of people.

I don't respond to their gasps and jumps back. I let the wind whip my hair, it flies around my back and Swiftfire's mane as well, I grasp harder to it and gallops towards the gate of the whole ranch. It was closed. I tuck closer to his neck and lift my self off his back. He bounces over the fence and lands safely on another side. He continues to run. I don't care how everyone is worried about me, how they whisper behind my back. We climb up the hill which was at the side of the road. My mind is fixed on - Kira. I can't remember anything or don't want to. He gets furious on my pursing him faster, he rears with no warning but I hold on, he gallops again, throwing multiple bucks, he bucks me off and I roll on the ground. He runs off, back towards the barn. I dust off my self, it is not that he is short. 

To me, minutes seemed like hours, hours like days. For me, I tried to do the impossible task - get Kira off my mind. It was impossible. I continue to think of her, it was all in vain.

No! Don't say that, it was not in vain, it was useful, she changed you and herself!

It was in vain! Of course, leave her behind! Start a new life.

I think a little. I will make my own decision and what will I do.

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I amble to the house and find the canteen, looking so dull. Everyone was gasping and whispering my name, I roll my eyes and they all look away. I grab a glass of water and sit in the corner, everyone was talking about me and Kira. I gulp a sip of water and it slides slowly down my throat.  Rachel laughs from other table and my blood starts to boil. I am damn enough of her. I stand up and walk towards her table. She gets up with a sneaky smirk on her face. I ball my fists and hit Rachel's face, she falls back on the chair and her friends gasp. I frown and walk away, without a word. Everyone was silent after my act to Rachel. It was a comfortable silence, something I needed. I leave my glass on the table and start to leave the canteen, before passing through the doors I turn around  ''Don't say anything behind my back,'' I mutter, but enough loud for everyone to hear. They all remain silent.

I leave the canteen and feel sick. I think I am going to puke. I run into the restroom and puke over the toilet. I tuck my hair behind. Vomit taste fills my mouth and I spit in the toilet. I flush it and close it. I rinse my mouth with water and look at my self in the mirror. I look pale, I have dark bags under my eyes and my make up is not visible. I open my purse and take a lip gloss, I apply it to my soft lips and grab a smokey makeup, I apply it and leave the bathroom. I need a rest. I definitely need a rest. I walk into my room and lock it. I slip off my clothes and grab a towel from my bedside table. I walk into the bathroom and close it too. I enter the bathtub and let the warm water from the shower rinse my skin. It was as warm as I could take. It relaxed me. I grab a shampoo and rub it over my hair. I wash it with shower and sit in the bathtub. I let the water spill out and I wrap my body in a towel. I abandon the bathroom. I find a soft a hairbrush and brush my wet hair. I slip in white light dress and lie in my bed. That was really good. It had relaxed me, but the mission impossible stays impossible.

This chapter was a little shorter. Because I update twice. I repeat I UPDATED TWICE TODAY!!! This is the only chapter from now on that will have only 1050 words. Sorry.

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