Something pisses me off. My friends that know me on Wattpad are going to be mad at me that I keep thinking about this, but its really hard not to when you see thing about it on your friend's Snapchat story all the freaking time.
Recently, my boyfriend dumped me. He told me it'd be easier because "his parents found out." I found out a couple days later he started dating one of my friends. I wont use her name, but a couple of my friends on here know already. Also, I'm sorry to everyone reading this, I just really needed to rant about this.
But he told me it'd be best if we ended it now so he wouldn't have to deal with his parents. And it really hurt that he wasn't willing to just keep it secret and stay with me. I was also sleeping over at my best friend's house when all of this was happening, so i thank her so, so much for dealing with me and the alien comment.
So I had finally calmed down and was almost sleeping, but I was texting My Queen, don't ask, its his nickname. I told him what he'd told me to break up with me, and he said, "That's what he said to her when he broke up with her for you. He found another girl." Cue me starting to sob again. Also, "her" is the friend he dumped me for. So he broke up with her for me, then me for her. I didn't find out they started dating until a couple days later though. Even though they were within 24 hours of him breaking up with me. But anyway.
I was over at another one of my friend's house. And she got my ex's number out of my phone and started texting him, under my supervision. He started being a dick while she was trying to be nice. So I texted him and told him to stop being a dick, and (she was talking about how much he hurt me and needed to apologize) how she had a good point. And he started getting pissed at me. So we got into a really bad fight, and he now hates me, whereas, my friends are going to hunt me down and kill me for saying this, but I still want to be with him...
The thing that really pisses me off though, is that I told him before we were dating that I have trust issues when it comes to people telling me they love me, because 3 people have said that they love me and need me, but we've broken up and they are perfectly fine without me. And he told me that he means it and would never lie to me. The day before he dumped me, he said, and I quote, "Baby u are my world, without u I have nothing." And this is exactly why I don't trust people. I want someone to be able to say they love and care about me and actually mean it for once.
The other coincidence is that he kept telling me he wanted to fuck me. I told him that I didn't want to do that, at least this early in our relationship and he seemed mad about that. And even thought he told me he didn't want me just to fuck, it sure as hell seems like it.
And I am just now realizing that I had something really good, and I ended it for someone that lasted less than a week. So if I hadn't broken up with them, I wouldn't have hurt him, and I wouldn't have gotten hurt. So, thanks to everyone who's dealt with me being whiny about this, and to everyone whos read this even though it's pointless. But I'm gonna go. So bye everyone, love you all!
