COLBY
It's been a couple weeks since I was in the hospital and I still haven't told anyone that I'm gay. I wrote a note to sam telling him how much I appreciated him as a friend, I was gonna come out to him through the note but I didn't. He probably didn't read it anyway, when I left he was in his room. I didn't fully black-out, I could still hear everything going on but my whole body was numb. I was so deep into my thoughts that I didn't even hear my door open, Elton put them back up yesterday, sam comes up to me and waves his hand in my face. "What." I say. "Can we talk?" Sam asks, I nod my head as he sits on my bed, Sam takes a deep breath. "Can I ask you a question without you running away and locking yourself in the bathroom?" He asks. I look at him in confusion and then remember what happened when he tried to ask what was wrong that day. "Yeah, go ahead." I say. "Why were you crying that day you filmed that video?" Sam asks, I start to cry, I didn't know what to say besides, I'm gay, but that was too much,Sam pulls me into a big hug. "Stop crying, just answer me, I want to know why my best friend was upset." Sam says. "I can't tell you sam, I-." I didn't even finish my sentence, I just got up and ran out of my room, I went down stairs and hid my face in the couch cushion. "Colby! you said you wouldn't do this, please just tell me!" Sam yells as he runs down the stairs into the living room. I don't respond, he doesn't get that I am too scared too tell him the truth, I can't do it. Sam sits next to me and rubs my back. I was so done with everyone asking me what happened the day I cut myself, I don't want them to know. Why else would I have cut, it was because I keep holding in the truth from everyone because I'm too scared. "Sam! Just leave me alone!" I yell. He looks at me with the most innocent puppy dog eyes ever and just cries, ugh! I was so done with people trying to get the truth out of me. "THERE ARE REASONS I DONT WANNA TELL YOU THINGS, I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THINGS AWKWARD BETWEEN US, UGH! I WISH YOU NEVER HELPED ME! YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST LET ME DIE. GO WATCH MY VIDEO AND MAYBE YOU WILL FIND OUT!" I scream, sam looks at me and starts balling. I didn't mean to yell at him, the stress was building, sam walks away and runs upstairs, I hear his door slam shut. I start to cry just thinking about how mean I was to the only one that I want to call mine.
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Your gay? Me too.
FanfictionColby has known sam since freshmen year and he's never told him that he's gay. Sam likes colby but is too scared to tell him. Colby makes a video that some of the roommates hear and it doesn't end well for sam or colby. Until they move back to there...
