When i was young i always thought this is really a beautiful world god is a loving person i loved everyone including my self but then it all changed i was too sensitive and can easly be broken i was always crying i hated my self why am i fat why is my hair shitty my family can barely afford anything why is everyone sad arround me am i the reason ?
it all started in primary school , too soon right ? I wasnt much of a popular girl i was the bullied girl the one with low self esteem and dirty blond hair tied to the back of my head close to my neck , i was the ugly over weighted girl with marks on her face when she smiles "fake smiles" i was jealouse of everyone i was jealouse of the first girl in our class (Nada) with incredible marks and the one that everyone loves the one with dark hair she was skinny and had no pimples or black heads the daughter of a rich family loving father and mother it happens that she was actually "my best friend" yeah my best friend who never liked me i wasnt enough for her she always laughed at my ass lol , we were like the happy gang the third girl is Sara (im not giving real names) sara was way too fat even more than me but she was the confident girl or the one whos pretending to love herself BULLSHIT .. I got bullied so bad i kicked some bitches asses sometimes when i got really angry for shit they say . My favorite teacher sport teacher pulled my butt in the resting room i was sweating what does that mean ?why did he touch my butt? is that bad? am i the reason? what is he trying to do? im stressing out, i dont undrstand this.. i went away slowly pretending that i didnt feel anything i went back home and started to cry again its another battle waiting for me .
The time stopped when i started realising things now i undrstand why mom is always crying and why my dad eats a lot of pills now i undrstand why my sister so stressed and crying all time now i undrtand it all...Im drowning all this came once of sudden
This is all im gonna tell you guys for the first paragraph tell me if you want me to add other paragraphs and talk about love and sexual abuse and suicide attempts the harddest time of my life where everything got darker♡
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The Diary Of A Miserable Angel
PertualanganA little girl was born in hell she suffered for years from depression,anxiety ,bullying , sexual abuses and sexual orientations in a sociaty that doesnt have mercy in a society where women are shame in a society where men are always the strongest...
