One Wild Ride (Magcon)

Ch. 22 : Love At First Sight.

Nash's POV 

"Doesn't it bother you too..?"

River: "Kind of... But their happy together, it's all that it matters.."

"You do realize that's how all his relationships end up being like.."

River: "I don't get what your saying, Nash."

"Slam has dated a lot of girls, they all look happy with him. But really they just get the attention of him being fake. He's a kiss - up; he doesn't like any girl. It's always a reason."

River stared at me, confused. She didn't how to respond so, she waited a few minutes and began to talk. 

River: "The reason being that he's in love with the girl. All guys show affection for a girl when they mean it. No one can ever fake affection.. If they do you cleary aren't happy. Chrissy is always laughing and smiling around him, she wouldn't be faking it. No one can fake when your in love, even if it's a scam."

I looked at her, thinking the words she just spoke. 

"What's love then.."

Instantly you pulled me closer, kissing me intensly. I didn't know what to do so, I pulled her closer putting my hands on her hip. She pulled away, smiling.

River: "Nash, have you been in love?" 

I shook my head, her brown eyes glittered. She was really pretty, with her bouncy curls. God, she was perfect in every way. Everyday I felt ignored and misplaced. I didn't feel like I fit in at all with the other boys. They are were tall, skinny, perfect hair. Not saying I don't have perfect hair or anything, I'm just saying they get the girls with their charms. I didn't really have charms..? Maybe, I haven't found them yet.. Maybe I just don't have any? 

River: "Nash.. Answer me.." 

"S-s-sorry.. I'm a little distracted by what just happened."

River: "No..?"

"No..! I mean yes, I haven't been in love..?"

River: "Nash, please calm down.. Your making this harder for the both of us.."

So many thoughts were going through my head, not knowing what to do. Did I love her, just because I kissed her? That doesn't mean anything right, or did it? What if I'm in love with someone else? I could tell River was uncomfterable, she kept scooting further and further away not knowing what to do. Finally I choked some words out hoping this will help with the situation I'm in.

"Make what harder..? River, I don't think you understand this. I'm not in love with y-y-you.."

The words you choked out on me. Did I do what was needed? Wait, why is River crying..? Did I say something wrong. No matter how hard I try to fix anything, it seems everything crumbles and breaks into pieces. I look at River, who is now dissapointed in me and upset. I don't love her, I don't? My mind was racing, with bunches of questions. River stood up and left, clicking the door behind her. I was so upset, why I can't make anything right? I just caused so many things that may affect our relationship. What relationship..? 

River: "I tried to help..  but your the son of a bitch.."

What.. Did she? I try to ignore the comment she made.. Me son of a bitch..? What did I do to make angry..

River's POV 

Nash basically left me hanging and blurting out his feelings for me? Why didn't he understand I had feelings for him.. I had to show him I wasn't hurt in a way. He stared at me for a minute, trying to turn back I quickly left leaving him speachless. Everyone was still downstairs getting high or partying.. I didn't see Chrissy or Slam anywhere, strange.. All I saw was random girls and guys are grinding on each other or just laughing and giggling. Where was Slam and Chrissy? To be fair the party was so heated, I was scared to walk around. Someone would pull my hand just laugh how pretty I am.. Finally I stumbled across Matthew who was having the time of his life.. I quickly pulled him over.

"Matt, what's going on? Why do you look like someone beat your ass?" 

He laughed at my comment.

Matthew: "Wow! Look's like my sister is trying to hog the attention?"

I looked at him confused.

"What is that supposed to mean?"

 He chuckled leaving with girls all huddled around him. I was so confused and I didn't know what was happening at that point. Someone taps my shoulder, I quickly turn around... Brent, Carter? Why are they both here? They had this serious look on their faces, Carter looks like he has been crying 24/7.. 

Carter: "H-h-hey.. River..?"

The music was so loud, I couldn't hear a word Carter was saying. Brent kept waiting for an answer all I did was stare.. Why did they both look like they didn't get any sleep at all..? I pull the two outside on at the back porch.

"What's up?"

They both look at each nervously not knowing what to say. Instantly I think about the arguement with me and Nash, did it have to something with him..? No.. maybe not, how would they know.. I haven't seen Carter in weeks, and Brent.. God knows what he has been up to.. I'm not going to trust the two, it sickens me what they did in the past and they don't know what's coming.. Especially Brent, what a heart breaking jerk he is.. 

I don't know what to do at this point..