untitled, 2018 | 김유겸

that

unfortunately for us the last trophy we received was the first and last win we had for our comeback, but it's okay. i guess this just proves that the trophy means so much more to me now. i hope they win more awards in the future. i wish everyone well.

seeing groups who are supposed to be our inferiors achieving more than what we have achieved in the past year is a bit bitter. quietly mumbling our group name when an award is in the middle of the winner announcement although we're all fully aware that such things are just beyond our imagination is bitter. putting so much effort on our work with sleepless nights and exhausting days and not receiving what we give with our all is bitter. everything is so fucking bitter in this world.

please be patient.
please.

although it appears that bright and full of love and rainbows version of me doesn't really care about awards and achievement, i do care. so much. it just feels like after spending a huge percentage of my life working and just getting a slap from reality that reminds me no matter how hard we work for something, there are always other people working harder than us.

please be patient.