//YOUNG.BLOOD//

First day, First feelings

We have had a lovely breakfast in the morning. By the time we returned to the hotel, Luke was already wide awake. "Morning fellas!" he said as we entered the lobby. "Did you have a good night rest?" He asked as he saw Ashton yawn. "Well actually I did" Ashton said. "I always do when we get back from traveling." "You are always happy!" Luke stated. "Even when you didn't have a good night rest. Mikey on the other hand.." He said while smirking. "Shut up, Hemmings. I'm only annoyed when I have to deal with you in the goddamn morning." Ever since we started this band, a love-hate relationship developed between me and Luke. I can't live with him in the early mornings, but I couldn't leave a city without him being by our sides.

The time went by pretty fast. We spend the day in our hotel, just to make sure we were relaxed before the show would start that night. It was 4 o'clock when I decided to give Crystal a call. After a few seconds, she picked up the phone. "Hello beautiful!" I said when I heard her gorgeous voice. "Hello Mikey. How are you feeling today?" I thought about the weird feeling I had in my stomach this morning, but decided not to tell her about it. She could get worried, and that is not what I wanted. "I am good, what about you love?" I love her voice so damn much. As if an angel was speaking up to me, soft and tender. "I am doing okay, I am at my mum's place at the moment, she could use some company." Crystal said. "Say hi to your mum from me!" Oh how I wished I could be with her right now. Damn jetlag, makes you think at night and sleep all day. "Are you excited about the first show tonight?" she asked me. "Yeah, I really am. I hope everyone will be excited to see and hear us again. I'm just not sure about this new sound, Crys. What if they don't like it?" And there it was again, this weird feeling in my stomach. "Oh Mikey, don't you worry about that. The fans still love you. They were all over instagram and twitter today. They are so nervous and they wonder what it is going to be like. They have always loved you. Your tour is even sold out! Don't worry, honey. I know that you will do a great job." I sighed. "You are right, love. I shouldn't make myself this crazy. We will be fine." I tried to convince myself. She is the best at making me feel at ease. "I miss you, Crys. I wished that you could experience this adventure with me..." I swallowed. This was harder than I thought, and this is just day 1 "I miss you too, Mikey. But we will get through this. We just call each other everyday, okay?" I agreed. "Ofcourse we do". "Have a good time tonight, Mikey. Text me when the show is done. I love you!" I smiled. Hearing her say these words, made everything better. "I love you too, sweetheart" and that is when the call ended. I sighed "Oh boy, this is gonna be a long long time..." I whispered to myself.

It was almost 6 o'clock. We were preparing to have some food at the venue. We soundchecked just an hour ago. Everything sounded fine, but I was still so nervous for what was going to happen tonight. There are nearly 500 fans outside, waiting for security to open the doors to the venue. We went outside today for a couple of minutes just to say hi to them and have some photo's together. They told us that they couldn't wait to get inside and that Want You Back is so amazing. Even if they tell me this for a hundred times, I'll never get used to it, nor will I believe it. Calum shook me out of my thoughts "Yo Mate, what will you have for dinner. These salmon things or lasagna?" he pointed at the table in front of me. "Yuk, Salmon things? never in a millions years that I will put that in my mouth!" Calum shrugged. Ashton walked in right as I said this. "That's what she said." Is what he added. I rolled my eyes. "I just don't eat the things that I don't know anything about. And it is pink. Food shouldn't be pink!" I stated. "Watch out, or you'll become a flamingo" Ashton said while trying not to laugh his butt off. "Oh how funny we are today" I said while shaking my head. At this point, everybody started to laugh. Believe it or not, but these weirdo's know how to make me stop worrying for a while.

After dinner was ready, we had to change clothes and prepare for the show. I didn't even know what to wear. So I asked Luke if he could help me out. Luke walked in as I called him from the dressing room. "Waddup Big Cliffo?" he asked. Oh Luke and his damn nicknames. "You need to help me find some proper clothes for tonight" Luke almost walked in to this closet thingy. "You defo need to wear your black cap. Suits you very well. And what about this...this black shirt and something white underneath it. Oh and maybe these black jeans" I tried to picture myself into the outfit he had chosen. "Hm, yeah. Why not tho. Let's see if this works out." I changed into the clothes Luke had picked out and watched myself in the mirror. "See, all good" Luke said while looking at my outfit. But the longer I stared into the mirror, the more uncomfortable I felt. Is that even me in the mirror? I look so damn empty. What is this weird feeling, and why is it taking over me. I didn't even realised that I sighed. "You okay, Cliffo?" I immediately looked up at him. "Yeah, sure... All good." I flashed him a quick smile in hope that he would buy it from me. "Okay, make sure you'll be down in 10 minutes." he said before walking out of the room. I sat down on my bed
and tried to forget about everything. My limbs felt so heavy. Am I getting sick? this is so strange. I can't even describe what I'm feeling, but it's definitely haunting me and scaring the shit out of me. I tried to get everything back together and stood up, one last look in the mirror and positive thoughts in my head, before I walked out of the room. Everyone was downstairs already, ready to rock their souls out.

After 10 minutes we made ourselves ready to go out on that stage. The friend we have missed for so long. To see the fans who have missed us for so long, and who we have missed for so long. This was the moment of truth. One last high five with Luke, a bromance hug with Cal and a brofist for Ash. Before the lights turned down and Ashton went to get his spot. This was it, there was no turning back.