"I didn't ask for that. But I feel like I deserved it..." I was explaining to Sarah.
"Girl! You totally deserved it! You wanted this to happen!"
"But...I felt like I was forced..."
The bright sun glimmered on top of the calm water in Sarah's pool. It was a lovely day, although, I couldn't be happy enough to notice the beauty around me. I could only think about what happened with Jamie last night.
"Come on Charlotte, you need to cheer up. It's not that bad. Everyone has problems, I'm sure you will be happy."
I sigh, "I'm sure your right...it's just..."
"Stop! You think you have it bad! Well, last night..."
At this point I blurred her out. Although I felt bad, I felt selfish. So for about twenty long minutes I listened to her and nodded.
Of course she has it worst, how can you betray a friend like that.
"Well thanks for having me over! I should go."
"Oh yeah, I understand. See yah!"
"Bye!"
How can I pretend to be so happy when I am clearly not?
I walk home and walk into my house. It was empty, as normal. I wanted food, but I knew I was on a strict diet. I haven't eaten a proper meal in weeks, maybe a month now. The last thing I had was an apple. But that was enough. My stomach howled for food, but I knew I had to stay strong. Surprisingly, over the couple of weeks I went from around 180 pounds to about 165. Of course that was a start, but it wasn't enough. I went to my room and looked in my mirror.
God you are fat. People must get depressed just from looking at you. Why do you even try?
I sigh and sit on my bed. As I do so, my phone lights up.
Jamie: Hey babe why haven't u texted me?
Me: Sorry, I have been busy.
Jamie: Being 'busy" is no excuse. R u cheating on me?? Is that is?!
Jamie: *it
Me: No, I'm not. I am loyal to you. Just because I don't text you doesn't mean anything.
Jamie: U r annoying. why r u so annoying? U r so lucky to have me.
Jamie: 2 prove that u haven't cheated u have to see me. NOW.
Me: Fine, you can come over.
Jamie: K, I need ur address.
I gave it to him and waited for him to show up.
Why do I feel like I don't want this?
Hey guys. Yes warning, this book will get depressing. Do no read if you can get sad easily or whatever. If there is mistakes, please tell me. Thanks! Enjoy!
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If Love Fails
Teen Fiction"A person who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is." What is love? Most would define it as holding hands, cuddling, staring into someone's eyes, and feeling happy. But what if, someone was destined to never feel...
