If Love Fails

Chapter 2

I stared at Jamie for a full minute before I realized that, well duh, I was staring at his dreamy green eyes.

"Hey Jamie! Sorry, I didn't know you would be here!"

Why is my voice so high pitched??

"Oh it's cool, hey, do you want to sit on the couch? We have...some room."

"Oh...uh...yeah!"

I move around couples making out and guys cheering on the floor and finally reach the couch. I begin to sit down next to Jamie, when he suddenly grabs my arm and yanks me on his lap.

"Jamie...wha...no stop."

"It's fine, there wasn't much room, I am helping you."

I can feel my face turn red, I wasn't sure if it was from embarrassment or anger. I tried to get up but he kept me still. I was struggling but a little part of me was telling me that I wanted this, that this is ok. But the other part was saying something was clearly off.

Ok...this is happening...just tell Sarah and she'll help...

"Sarah...?"

She looks up from the floor

"Hm?"

"Can we go...get food?"

She looked at me, clearly confused.

"Sure?"

We get up and head towards the kitchen. Sarah looks at me like I just murdered her family.

"Girl, what is wrong?"

"Well Jamie is making me uncomfortable and..."

"CHARLOTTE! Dude! This is your crush! You should be happy about this! There is nothing wrong, you need to calm girl!"

She moves back over with Jake and cuddles with him. I sigh and tell myself that it is alright, I was overreacting. I walked over and sat back on Jamie's lap. I look back and he has a big smile on his face, he proceeded to put his hands around my waist.

No, this is not ok, something is wrong. You should leave NOW.

"You know...I just remembered, my mom wants me home around this time...an..."

I was cut off by Jamie laughing.

"Oh, yes yes, I'll walk you out sweetheart."

At this point I was about to cry because no one was doing anything about this. I slowly got up, said goodbye to everyone, and headed for the door. I started to put my boots on when Jamie pushed me against the wall.

"Jamie! What the..."

"Shh, no one will notice or care. It's fine"

He put his lips against mine. I was in shock and I pushed him away.

What the hell are you doing?? You want this, you deserve this! Go for it!

I basically peer pressured myself into kissing him again.

I felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. Heck, I kinda felt worse for some reason. Something was just off.

"Wow babe...I guess you are my new girl huh?" Jamie chuckled.

"Uh, yeah! Well I gotta go so...bye!"

I pushed past him and practically ran outside and ran towards my house.

What was that? What just happened? Yesterday I was fine, but now I should feel happy, but...

I walked into my house and sighed. I walked to the living room and my mom was passed out. Typical. I thought as I looked at the amount of beer and whisky that was on the ground. I grab an apple and head towards my room. I enter, and plop on my bed, exhausted, and emotionally drained.