Letters Of Apologies ➳ (jenlisa)

Chapter 6

Lisa's P.O.V

A silence fills the room and we do nothing but look at each other. Its crazy to start to like her right? Its selfish of me to even think of it. If I let myself act on these feelings she will only be heartbroken in the end and that's not fair to her...or anyone for that matter. I should be happy...but that doesn't matter if it means people get hurt because of me. I already know my fate so why should I risk hurting her?

"Dinners ready!" my mom shouts from the hall breaking my concentration from my thoughts. "Are you hungry?" I ask. "Starving" she replies with a voice crack which causes me to laugh to myself.

The both of us walk downstairs and stand by the counter. "Could I help you with anything Mrs. Manoban?" Jennie offers and my mom turns back to stare at her for a moment. "Yes thank you, Lisa why dont you come help as well, its a shame your guest wants to help instead of you" I dont say anything, instead I just look down and walk over to help my mom with Jennie following behind.

Jennie begins to takes the food to the table and I follow behind her with the plates. The three of us sit down and Jennie sits beside me as my mother starts passing out the food.

"Wow this smells and looks amazing!" Jennie exclaims which earns a small smile from my mother. "What is it?" Jennie adds and my mom points the dishes out to her "This is Som Tam, which is like a papaya salad, and this is Geng Kheaw Wan Gai which is a green curry chicken and then this is Kao Phad which is just rice" Jennie nods and almost eats some but I stop her by placing my hand on her thigh and she looks at me confused. "We give thanks first" my mom announces and Jennie apologizes. "Are you two catholic or Christian?" she asks. "No we are Buddhists, but we like the give thanks for the meal before we eat" my mother informs her and I cringe to myself.

Once my mom finishes giving her thanks we all begin to eat. "So Jennie was it? Are you from here?" my mom asks breaking an uncomfortable silence. "Well I am originally from South Korea but I grew up in New Zealand" the small girl clarifies causing my mom to nod slowly. "Oh you're Korean, what part did you grow up in?" I watch my moms facial expressions change like she is trying to figure something out. "I dont really remember" both my mom and Jennie nod and an awkward silence takes in the room.

"I think its nice Lisa made a new friend, its about time, I thought she was just heartless for a while, since she acts that way, I guess I was wrong". I look at the ground feeling somewhat hurt by what my mom said. "She use to talk to me about how she wanted to be a kpop star but just like everything else she stopped caring" the tone in my moms voice breaks my heart some and I want nothing more than to just yell at her but I cant bring myself to do that. "I dont think she is heartless, she has been nothing but nice to me since-" my mom begins to cut Jennie off by coughing. "Did you not hear me when I said that I was wrong?" my mother disclosed. Jennie coughs and looks up to me, "You wanted to be a Kpop star?" she asks showing her cute gummy smile. "Um...Yeah, but that was a while ago. I realized that I cant" I tell her. "I want to be one, I always have but Im not in Korea anymore, so maybe once I finish school" she announced and I cant help but smile at the thought of it. "Well, remember me when you get all big and famous after school" I joke which earns a giggle from her. "Always" she nudges my shoulder and gives me her cute smile once again.

"Well its a waste of time trying out for those things" my mother interrupts and Jennie looks like the words got to her but it doesnt only effect her, the words makes me reach my breaking part with her in this moment. "I dont believe she asked if it was or not" I argue and both Jennie and my mom look up at me. "Its fine" Jennie tries but I shake my head and look up to glare at my mother who is rolling her eyes. "You clean up Lisa, Jennie dear it might be time for you to go" she announces and I scoff. "Im sorry if I offended you Mrs. Manoban, it was not my intention at all" Jennie apologizes. "The only one who offended me was Lisa dear. But im afraid it is time for you to leave" My mother leaves to go to her room and Jennie only stares at me and I sigh. That was the one thing I did not want to happen at this dinner.