Meeting My Soul Mate

Chapter 4 "How badly this will hurt me.."

"Caitlyn!"

"Caitlyn, stop!"

"Shut it!

Voices rang in my head as I was swallowed into sudden darkness. My head hurt so much and I wanted to scream. I felt like I was falling into time and space, and I was so scared of what I might find when I reach the end.

In a flash, I was back. I stood back at the mess hall.

What happened?

I looked around, trying to make sense of what just happened.

And that's when I saw her.

I froze in total shock as I saw myself talking to Mitchie in our usual tables. I saw how I ate my pancakes, and how confused I looked, then I began choking and suddenly I was standing up.

I could never go wrong. I'm watching everything again, like I was some other person.

"Caitlyn, are you okay?", I heard Mitchie say. I looked at my other self. I was so pale, and I wasn't moving. Mitchie was freaking out.

"Caitlyn..?", she said as she stood up. Suddenly, my other self began shaking and struggling for balance. That was when the other campers began crowding, I, becoming part of the audience. I could barely see through the campers but Sander was suddenly yelling my name, and people were freaking out.

I needed to see what was happening so I tried to push through the crowd. But as I tried, something strange happened.

My hand passed right through their bodies.

I quickly withdrew my hand back.

No, no what's going on? Am I dead? What have I done?

"Caitlyn, stop!", someone yelled.

Out of worry, I quickly made my way to the front. My other self yelled back.

"Shut it!", she said.

I froze on my feet as I saw what was happening. The counselors stood by my side, and my other self, was -I don't know how but she was- holding a knife.

"Caitlyn, what's happening to you?!", Ella yelled.

My other self just laughed.

Okay, I looked like I was really going out of my head. I could tell people were scared.

"What's going on?", I murmured.

I looked at everyone's distressed faces, then to my other self. She raised the knife, and suddenly she was going to stab herself.

Or in short, I was trying to kill myself, at the moment.

I screamed, but I'm pretty sure no one could hear me. Everyone else was screaming, too, and the whole thing happened before me in slow motion. I tried to run, but I couldn't. My feet felt numb, and I was crying so hard. As the knife almost made contact to my body, I saw someone materialize beside my other self.

Nate.

My other self dropped the knife, and collapsed to the floor. Barron and Sander quickly rushed to my body and checked me. Suddenly, I was being carried away in Barron's arms, probably to the clinic. The other counselors tried to calm the campers from the widespread panic I caused.

Meanwhile, I sank down on my knees. I was so confused, and I couldn't remember a single thing than just blacking out. What happened to me? What was I thinking? Was it even me? What did Nate do? Was I possessed? Did Nate possess me?

Did he?

Was that what he was after all this time? Trying to kill me? But why? Was he dying? Was he desperate enough to try and steal someone else's life?

"Caitlyn"

I looked up and saw Nate staring down at me.

"Stay away!", I yelled as I stood up. "Stay away from me!"

"Caitlyn, calm down."

"Calm down?! How can I calm down?! I just watched myself almost end my life!", I yelled, keeping my distance from him.

His chocolate brown eyes stared right at me. He sighed.

"I was afraid of this.", he murmured.

"Why didn't you tell me?!", I asked. "Why didn't you tell me you're a ghost?"

"I'm not a ghost. Just a soul. I'm in a coma.", he said, not losing the gentleness in his voice.

"Well then, why didn't you just tell me?"

"Because you're the only one who could see me. You're my only hope to get back.", he said. "You're the only one who could help me and-"

I didn't let him finish. Something inside me just clicked and I suddenly became so angry.

Everything made perfect sense.

"You were using me, weren't you?", I said bitterly, cutting him off.

"Caitlyn, no.."

"You used me!", I yelled. "Everything you did, that was all fake, wasn't it? You did that so I'd help you?!"

"Caitlyn, it wasn't like that-"

"You know what? You could've just told me. I would've gladly helped you.", I said. "Tell me, what's your plan? Are you taking my life? Is that why you tried to possess and kill me huh?!", I yelled at him.

I was so mad that all the words just poured out of my mouth.

"Caitlyn, listen to me!"

"I don't want to! You're a liar!", I yelled back. Suddenly, Nate tried to get closer to me.

"Stay away!"

But he wasn't fazed. He jumped on me, his hand grasping my wrist. I yelled for him to let me go but he wouldn't. He slipped his arms around my waist and pulled me to his chest. I did all I could to break free.

"Caitlyn..stop it.", he said.

"Let me go!"

"I won't unless you stop struggling."

"Just leave me alone!"

"Stop it Caitlyn. Just please stop it."

"Let me-"

He forcefully kissed me on my lips. It was a kiss of pure punishment.

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A/N: what d'ya think? :)

-C.