I don't know why
But I feel like breaking down
I don't know why
But I feel like crying
I don't get it
Everything has been okay
I guess when I didn't talk to certain people
It made life easier
But I still felt past feelings coming to me from them
I don't know if that's a good thing
Or a bad thing
I want them in my life
But if it takes a burden off my back
Are they really worth it?
But if I care about them
The burden is worth it
It is worth trying to make them happy
Because if they're happy
Then I'm happy
But if they're gone
I don't really feel anything
I guess if they're gone long enough
I will start to miss them
I actually think I'll miss them a lot
Because occasionally
They do make me happy
But they do make me sad too
The main question is
Are they worth it
I don't know actually
I think I need to find out
At one point
I would have said they are worth it
I mean they make a lot of mistakes
But I always got over them
Because I love them
But now that I've made a mistake
They won't forgive
I don't really get it
But I want to help
No matter what
At this moment
I want to help them
At this very moment
I think they are worth it
At this very moment
I'm willing to take the risk
Of getting hurt
Because they are worth it to me
I might end up really sad in the end
Or really happy
All I know that the moment
Is that I want to give this friendship
A chance
I honestly don't know what changed the friendship in the first place
But I'm willing to give it another chance
I don't think they realize
How much things have affected me
I really care about them
And it hurts me
To see them hurting
I didn't mean to do anything wrong
I never meant to hurt you
But you need to know
That I was hurting
I did what I did for the sake of me trying to move on
I didn't want to hurt every time I saw your face
Because that's what was happening
And I don't understand how you give people who haven't changed a bit another chance
And not me
And I'm sorry if that comes off jealous
But I don't think they are different people
They are just looking for friends
And you are completely blind to the fact
That they aren't good people
They aren't who you think they are
I don't know if that's just my standards
And it probably is
But I don't want you to get hurt
Anymore than you already have been
And I know that I hurt you
I've realized that
But I will never do it again
Ever
I promise
I know I'm annoying as crap at sometimes
That's because
I'm awkward
And I don't know how to handle things
It's just me
I don't try to be that way
It's just how I am
But like I said
I promise
To never
Ever
Hurt you again
