Save me! (Boyxboy)

Chapter 17

I'm so glad for all of the support from my readers you all inspire me to keep writing!! the winner for the ship name is still Edan. But Jaythan was really close too. Anyway onto the story and I apologize for everything I have to put Jayden through. It makes me so sad knowing what he has to go through but I must put it for the story to continue.

Warning: mentions of rape

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Ethan's POV

It has been almost a week since Jayden has disappeared and it looks like his father had left too. The house was practically empty but I was going to check it for any clues as to where Jayden was taken. I know he's alive I can feel it in our connection.

Right now I am sitting in my room where my dad told me to sleep since I barely sleep anymore I am too busy searching the woods for signs of Ethan. I have checked every inch of our territory and have gotten permission from surrounding packs to check theirs. I haven't slept at all since he left unless I literally passed out from exhaustion.

I was too worried to sleep, or eat really. My mom keeps forcing me to eat at least once or twice a day if she can. The only reason I'm in my room now is I've run out of ideas of where to look. My head jerks up at the sound of a knock on my door. Slight hope that someone knows where he is rises in me without my permission. And I call for whoever's there to enter.

Luke opens the door but I can see that it's not what I want from him by his sympathetic expression. My heart drops and tears prick my eyes as realize that I may never be able to see or hear or touch my sweet Jayden again.

"Hey Ethan I know you must be really upset right now but I finally told Hadley about our kind and she has been freaking out about Jayden. She hasn't seen him since before the rogue attack. All I've told her before now was that he was in an accident and at the hospital but wasn't allowed visitors. I can't get her to stop crying now that she knows what happened to him and she's starting to blame you. I want you to talk to her so that she realizes that it's not your fault." Luke explains quickly. I just nod slightly and he waves someone in before he comes and sits next to me with his arm around my shoulder comfortingly.

"This is all your fault Ethan! You shouldn't have let him go back to his abusive fucking father in the first place! Do you know that almost twice a week he has to sneak over to my place after his dad beats the shit out of him?! Last time he came over he was fucking drunk! Drunk! That's how bad it was! I was the only one who took care of him! He had a major crush on you! And when he told me that you actually liked him too I knew I should've told him not to trust you! But no, I just had to let him believe that you could actually love him! Now look, you have let him be taken away somewhere! He may be dead by now!" She screams at me before she draws her hand back and slaps me hard across the face.

"I know it's my fault. It's all my fault! It should have been me." I whisper as I begin crying again. A broken sob escapes me as Luke drags Hadley to the hall and begins to whisper/yell at her. I could have heard what he was saying but I was too focused on cradling my red, stinging cheek and trying to hold back my sobs. I keep mumbling 'it's my fault' over and over again as guilt washes over me.

It feels like my insides are all twisted up with the guilt I feel and my chest keeps tightening letting the occasional sob out against my wishes. I know I need to be strong. I'm going to be the freaking alpha of this pack soon but I can't seem to control my grief.

Like and Hadley come back in the room and each take a seat on either side of me. They both hug me tightly as Hadley whispers how sorry she is and begins crying with me.

"It's ok Ethan. You don't have to try to stop crying. Even the strongest alphas need to cry. It doesn't make you any weaker. It's ok just let it out. We're here for you." Luke soothes as he begins rocking us slightly and whispering encouraging words to me.