I woke up in roberts arms. him looking down on me. me looking up at him. "its wednsday at 10:00 A.M. Ms.Evans. I'm afraid I'm going to have to punish you." he giggled in his low voice. I was quickly jumping out of bed. He had an understanding look in his face that calmed me so much. He smiled at my nervousness. "How about waffles?" I said "Sure I'll take 2.""good I'll just pop 4 in the toaster." "sounds great." he said happily." I went down stairs and just kept thinking I could've stayed in that bed. I wanted to now that I think about it but im scared. I'm bringing us our waffles, and talking to him about it. the waffles popped I put them on a plate and took a deep breath and thought for a second... I was ready. I went up stairs and laid beside him and looked at him. "what?" he said happily. "I'm sorry.." "For what?" I jumped out of bed when you said that. It was reflex I didn't mean to upset you." "You didn't upset me Em! I under stand I lost my virginity once too." " I know you did but for girls its not like 'I lost my virginity it was great!' its 'I lost my viginity it was painful but worth it'" He looked at me . "is that why you haven't done it?" "yeah.." I looked away. "Emma I know pain is scary but in order to live life you have to go through it." "I know that! I want the pain to be worth it though. like I said 'Painful but worth it.'" He looked at me. " Trust me. I will make it perfect. when you're ready." I smirked "You never know if that you'll be the one to make it perfect.." I said smiling. "but you would have to work hard if you were." He smiled. "I'll make it perfect." "I if you get the chance." we snuggled up close and I was surprised he didn't take that moment to go for it. why did everyone think he was such a jerk?
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I had gone home that night to Tyler all pissed off and shit. I didn't think the time was right even when he was screaming bloody murduer into my ear. My phone rang it was Robert. I told Tyler it was my boss. "hello? Robert slow dow- You have to talk at nor- DOWNEY-" you could hear faint screaming in the phone. "Tyler I have to go deal with this. Can you manage to just pretend to choke me when i walk away for now?" I left. and he did. I don't understand why he was so protective. I got to Roberts drive and ran inside. there were candles lit in groups everywhere I looked. there was a note on the door. "am I doing good so far?" is what it read. My eyes started to water up I was so happy. I followed the blue roses to the kitchen (my favorite). There was pasta at the table. A note on the bowl said "You told me your favorite color was blue and your favorite flower was a rose :)" I felt the warmth in my chest I've never felt before. I fliped the note and it said "sit I'll be down in a minute lovely" I sat there teary eyed as Robert walked into the room handing me a boquet of red and blue roses. "What's wrong Em?" He asked smiling at me. "Nothing's wrong... You went to all this trouble just to sleep with me." He smiled."Not to sleep with you. Not tonight." I looked at him puzzled. "Then why would you do this?" I asked letting out a laugh. Robert stood me up and a song came on 'Good bye my lover by james blunt' he put his hand out. "may I have this first dance?" I nodded covering my mouth with one hand and giving him the other. "Em, why so freaked out?" he laughed. I looked at him in the eyes and said "because noone has ever done anything special for me." He pulled me in close as we started to dance and he rested his head on my head and perfectly swaying our body's molded together like puzzle peices, he took a deep breath and said."Emma?" "Yeah?" "hasn't your Mom or Dad done anything special?" I hesitated to answer. "Uhh- sure." He smiled and kissed me. I smiled into the kiss..He looked at me and smiled. "Calm down." "okay." my voice cracked into a whisper as I said it. we danced until morning to a string of love songs Robert put together. over and over 8 songs played. 'good by my lover' 'I don't know what to do.' 'Breath of life' 'wanted' 'safe and sound' 'river' 'stay' 'iron man nico vega' we danced and danced... all of my problems were gone. not that at the moment there were any. I was so tierd but I didnt want to stop dancing. I fell asleep in him warm arms. He carried me to his room and layed down with me. I woke up looked at him and instantly I was the happiest person alive. "I love you." I instantly said not meaning to coering my mouth. "I love you more." He said as a grin swept across his face."Robert. don't start that I'll keep it going for etirnity." " I wouldn't mind hearing you say you love me more for enirnity." he said smiling as I huged him and said "I'm taking a shower here." "okay go ahead" He laid back letting me go to the bathroom. I stepped in the shower and wet my hair and couldn't beleive what I just did. I washed my hair with him shampoo and loved it. it smelt like he did. i stepped out in the bathroom to a message on the mirror."I love you baby -RDJ" I stood there waiting for the condesation to wear off and wrote"I love you most babe -Emma <3" I had won.
