Kissing 101 - Double B

prologue

A/N: this story includes one sided binhwan pining, I warn you, yet there is generally much more double b (mostly because this is a double b book lmao)

I hope you enjoy this story!

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Hanbin's life had always been like a race.

Time was always, always ticking. When he was brushing his teeth, time was messing with his head. When he was bolting to get to school, an invisible clock was going crazy somewhere. And whenever he was simply relaxing, a time-bomb was raging as if he had so many things that he should be doing instead.

He was always running against something too, he knew he was, but he wasn't quite sure. Was it really as simple as a race against time? Maybe it was against consequences, against growing up, against all the things that he didn't want but he knew one thing for sure - he would probably never stop being in this race that was endless and to top it all off, he was barely winning.

Just barely.

"Hanbin!" a voice that Hanbin loved far too much yelled, making him turn around as he saw Jinhwan run towards him. "Hey, hyung-"

"Now, did you, did you know that I'm a genius?" Jinhwan said happily, taking a seat on the couch right next to Hanbin who grinned, laying his arm right on the backrest behind Jinhwan's head. "That test I thought I completely flunked, well, that big fat A on it said different-"

"We're all proud of our smart Jinani," Hanbin said, a soft smile on his face as he looked at Jinhwan who was already launching into another conversation that Hanbin was barely going to listen to because he was too busy staring.

Just like everything else, it was even a race when it came to Jinhwan and it was the first and only one that Hanbin was outrageously losing. Jinhwan was the award that he'd never be able to get because no matter what, Hanbin just couldn't say those three simple words that would confess his undying love instantly.

Jinhwan didn't like him that way anyway.

He was too beautiful and perfect for Hanbin and he always would be, even at his lowest moments that Hanbin was always there for...but the elder would never notice it. He'd never see the love in Hanbin's eyes or the utter adoration because they were just supposed to be best friends.

Best friends.

That was all it was.

"What would be the thing that would just sweep you off your feet when it comes to all your romance stuff?" Hanbin asked randomly on one cold day, a mug of hot chocolate nestled between his hands as he sipped from it. He almost choked when Jinhwan gave him the most weirded out look ever but he quickly swallowed to clear his throat. "I'm just curious! No need to stare like you want me six feet under..."

"I mean, it's a weird question."

"I'm a weird person, hyung," Hanbin shrugged and Jinhwan nodded in thoughtful agreement. "True...well, there is one thing."

Hanbin straightened up instantly before trying to hide behind his mug. "What- what is it?"

"A kiss that'll blow my mind," Jinhwan said nonchalantly, smiling down at the hot chocolate he was stirring. And then Hanbin's heart dropped straight to the ground because right then at that moment, a million shards of the glass that was his emotions seemed to shatter.

He didn't know how to flirt or woo or seduce or kiss or anything. It wasn't even that Jinhwan had said anything that bad but it had triggered a whole wave of self-deprecation and anger because Hanbin was an idiot who fell in love with the one guy who would never love him back.