BTS Ships //INACTIVE

Jin: Out

Summary: Jin realizes he's gay and comes out to Jimin, who has some pretty interesting secrets of his own as well.

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Jin had been in his room of he and Yoongi's dorm for almost half the day. He couldn't get rid of the thoughts he was having about his band members. He hadn't been out with a girl or even able to think about going out with one for years now.

Every now and then, these things popped up in his brain about how deep Namjoon's voice was, how handsome he was with his cute dimples, or how adorable Jimin was when he did aegyo and how it made him feel when Hobi did some moves on stage. There were also small things that would happen between them that made Jin feel things he hasn't even felt with a girl.

He didn't want to believe it, but he knew he liked guys. He knew he was gay... or at least for his band members. He kept trying to make excuses to himself but he couldn't. He kept trying to tell himself, 'This isn't right, they're like family,' or 'It's just because I haven't had contact with females for so long.' But no matter how hard he tried to believe that, he knew it wasn't true. He was on Twitter when he read someone called him a 'fag'. The word kept going around in his head, while he could do nothing besides believe that it was true.

He paced around his bed one last time and plopped down on it with a loud sigh. "Ugh! What the hell am I supposed to do?" Then, the door opened.

"Hi Jin-hyung! Are you okay? You've been in here for a while and we're about to get pork skewers for lunch! Wanna come?" said Jimin. Jin sighed once more before taking a breathe and speaking, "Hey Jiminie. I don't know; I'm not feeling up to it." "Aww, Jin-hyung..." he said, frowning. "But we have off today and we never get off! We miss you and want to spend time with our hyung. Is everything ok?" Jimin said in a sad tone. "Jiminie, do you think..." he paused and let out yet another sigh. "...do you think I can tell you something?"

Jimin looked at his hyung with worried eyes as he replied, "Of course, Jin-hyung!" he said, making his way over to the bed to sit next to Jin, putting his hand on his thigh. "You can tell me anything!" Jin took a deep breath. "Jimin...I-I tha-think I'm..." he trailed off for a moment, realizing what he was about to say. Jimin looked toward him with big eyes and a slight smile that was comforting to Jin. "I think I'm gay." Jin said all at once this time, trying not to stutter and just get it over with. Jimin took both of Jin's hands as his vision turned blurry. Jimin started to cry.

Jin looked at Jimin in shock as he started to worry immediately, but before Jin could say something Jimin blurted out, "OH JIN-HYUNG!" he exclaimed, starting to sob happily. "You have NO idea how happy I am to hear that!" Jimin said hugging Jin close. Jin was surprised and confused. "What, you don't feel weird around me? You don't think that I'm... that I'm..." He started to cry, remembering what he read online earlier, "a fag?" Jin asked, sobbing at this point, hugging Jimin back tightly. "Jin-hyung, NO! I would NEVER EVER think that way of you! I'm happy because I am too, hyung!" Jimin said, his voice turning into a happy tone at the end of his sentence. Jin pulled away slowly. "What? How do you know? Did you tell anyone? Do you-" Jin was cut off by Jimin. "Hyung! Slow down!" he said, beginning to chuckle a bit. "I've known for about a year now, and... no. You're the first one I'm telling. And yeah, I know that you might have doubts, but when you know... you know. There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with that." Jin began to smile wide, suddenly glad he told Jimin.

He started to speak when there was a knock at the door. "Jimin-ah! Jin-hyung! We've been waiting to get lunch for 15 minutes now! Are you coming?" The voice was coming from Yoongi. "No. Go on without us! We're going to stay here and get rest." said Jimin. "Okay, bye guys!" Yoongi said as he walked way from his own room that he shared with Jin. He always knocked in respect for his hyung. They heard the rest of the members yell, "Bye!" and the sound of the front door closing, signaling that everyone had left. "Why didn't you go get pork skewers? And were they here the whole time? They were really quiet... did they hear us?" Jin asked as he started to get worried. "No, hyung! I came here alone to get you while they were all at Hoseok-hyung, Taehyung, and I's dorm. They must've all come over to get us recently." Jin sighed in relief. "I stayed here because I want to talk about this with you! How often do we get to talk alone?" Jin smiled warmly as Jimin got up, still holding his hand. "Why don't I make some popcorn so we can talk and watch a movie in the living room while they're gone?" Jin nodded as Jimin guided him into the kitchen that was right next to the living room. Jin sat on a bar stool while Jimin placed popcorn in the microwave, leaning over the counter to talk to Jin. "So how did you... how did you know?" Jin asked hesitantly as Jimin smiled. "I never was super interested in girls but I was never attracted to guys either. I just wasn't at that stage yet until I became a trainee, I guess. But, when I did become a trainee, I had absolutely no time for that. When we became a band, I slowly fell in love with all of you guys in a brotherly way." Jimin paused. "But soon, I guess I started to get to that stage... my hormones. I started to get sexually attracted to people, and at that point I didn't even have a choice to date girls. And I loved all of your personalities so much. I started to think things about the rest of the band including you..." He started to blush a little as Jin smiled and pink spread across his face. "I would think about how you guys were handsome and cute when you did certain things," he paused, hesitant about what he would say next. "And some things were kind of hot if I'm being completely honest."