Runnin Thru The 7th - SuicideBoys

I Need You

I wake up, sore everywhere from the events that took place last night. Thankfully, Jake isn't in the bed with me, that probably means he got blackout drunk last night and never came home, pretty much the usual.

I don't feel like getting up to see if he's home so I just turn on my phone. I go through the notifications and delete the ones that don't matter, I stop when I see the message from Ruby. 

suicideLEOPARD: It's tomorrow, now tell me if you're okay or not.

Me: Ruby, I'm fine. Have you guys dropped off Emily yet?

suicideLEOPARD: Nah, do you want us to bring her there? It won't be a problem

Me: Please

I throw my phone on the bed and get dressed. I try to cover up the wounds on my face with makeup but there's no point. Em knows me like the back of her hand, she'll know something's up. I hope the guys won't want to come say bye to me, I don't know if they'd care about what happened but I still don't want them to see me like this. 

About an hour later, I hear a knock on the door. When I open it, Emily is standing there but Ruby and Scrim are right behind her. 

"What the fuck happened, Ash?" Emily storms into the house, "Did that cunt, Jake do this? I swear to god I'll fucking kill him." 

"Emily, can I just talk to you in private. Please," I beg, I really don't want to do this in front of them.

We walk into the bedroom and I immediately burst into tears. She pulls me over to the bed to sit down and comfort me. 

"Ashly, I need you to tell me what happened so I can help you." 

"It happened again," I said, trying not to make eye contact. She knew exactly what I meant.

"Ash, you need to leave this piece of shit, right now! What's holding you back? He's worthless," She looks at me with as much sympathy as possible.

"Please, just go outside for a minute and smoke a blunt or something to calm down. I can't think with you yelling at me," I say, hoping she'll agree. She does, so she stands up and leaves without saying a word. 

The whole time, I've had a feeling that I need an opinion from someone who doesn't know the history. I can't tell Scrim, he's too unpredictable for me, too dangerous, too ruthless. I have to tell Ruby, I don't have an attraction to him, but I have a need for him, a need for his company, I need him as a friend. I slowly open the door and look down the hallway to see them slumped on the couch. 

"Ruby, I need you," I say quietly but apparently loud enough for Ruby to immediately jump up off the couch as fast as he can. 

He walks into my room and shuts the door.

"I'm here. Please tell me what's going on, Ashly," he says as he rubs my shoulder.

"I needed someone to vent to that doesn't know me all that well, but Scrim scares me so I needed you." I sigh. "Last night, when I got home, Jake hit me multiple times and then he raped me." Those words rolled off of my tongue like poison. 'He raped me.' I never realized how bad it was until I said it. 

"Ashly, I'm so fucking sorry. You can't stay with him any longer. I can help you and Emily get away from that stupid fucker, he'll never find you guys again, I promise." 

I didn't exactly know how to react to that statement, I had a million questions. How would he help us? Will he hurt Jake?  Why does he care? Is he going to tell Scrim? Would he do worse than just hurt him? I wanted to ask Ruby all of these questions, but right now none of it mattered.

"You know imma have to tell Scrim, right?" 

"Why? I don't want him to judge me," I ask, even though I wasn't worried about that. I just didn't want Jake to get hurt, as much as I hate him right now.

"Trust me, baby. He's not going to judge you, he's just going to rip that prick a new one."

But that's what I'm afraid of

"How are you going to help us?" I ask.

"We're going to get you guys the fuck outta here. We'll take care of you until you can move on without us," I never expected him to be this sincere to a fangirl he met yesterday.

"But we have nowhere to go, Ruby." 

"Sure ya do, you're coming with us." He says with a cheesy ass smile.

Fuck it. I need to get out of here. So does Em 

"Why are you so happy to help two random ass girls you just met?" I blurt out.

"To us, you're not just random girls, you're our fans. And we've always said that fans are family. We'll always have our family's back."

"Fine. We'll come with you guys," I already know I don't have to ask Em, she's been trying to get out of this shit fest for years. "But we have to get out before Jake comes home, I don't want any of you here when he gets back."

I walk out to find Emily in the backyard and tell her everything that just happened, what I had just agreed to. When we both get inside, I can hear Ruby telling Scrim everything, including what Jake had done to me. I start to hurry and pack everything that I need and love, while still only bringing the bare minimum. 

Emily helps me gather everything into two small suitcases and we bring them into the living room, where I see Scrim and Ruby sitting on the couch in silence. Scrim looks up at me but doesn't say anything. I don't think he knows what to say. I start to open my mouth, but before words can come out, I hear the front door open and from the corner of my eye, I see Jake standing there.