HONEYCOMB! ( queenie goldstein )

an explantaion

hey guys.
it's been a long time since i've updated this book. and i mean a long time. and it's not just this one, either. i haven't updated a book in months, so i feel like i need to let you guys know what's up.

a couple months ago, my grandfather passed away. it wasn't a shock, but it was still (and continues to be) a devastating aspect of my life. he was the first close relative i've lost and i guess i never really realized how detrimental things like this would be to me? i have always been a pretty stoic person but something about this has just thrown a loop into my world and i don't know how to deal with it.

consequently, i've become pretty depressed. not like "oh my god i'm so depressed let me
cry about it", no. like the "i can't fucking move anymore and i don't remember the last time i genuinely laughed and everything hurts so fucking much all the time" kind of depressed. his death definitely contributed to this, but i've also had a pretty tough year in general. i've let of something that i really used to enjoy that just doesn't bring me happiness anymore, i hardly see any of my friends because they go to different schools now, and my self esteem has fucking plummeted.

i didn't mean for this to be a depressing sob story or an open season for pity, i just wanted to let you all know what the fuck is wrong with me. and to be honest, i don't know when i'll update next. and i'm sorry, because i really want to continue these books and pump out content like all the great writers in here do, but it's just hard. i truly hope you understand and i want you all to know that i care about these stories and i want them to be the best they can possibly be, not just half-baked books whose contents are just writing to make content, not to write and make interesting, faceted stories. i hope you all understand, and if you've hung around for this long, then you're the fucking man! that's dedication!!

anyways, thank you all so much for reading, and this isn't the end. (that sounds so damn stupid but i couldn't think of any other way to word it lol)

ps. i'm posting this on all of my books so if i see one person commenting "tHaTs JuSt LaZy!1!!!" then they can catch these hands bruh