"Oh my god! Izzy, Eden!" Anna shouts running in and jumping on the bed that Izzy and I are sat on. She continues jumping. "George and Lydia have finally gotten together! They're datinggg!" Anna shouts. I start jumping and squealing with Anna, while Izzy just looks at the bed sheets with a sad look on her face. Dorothy, my new kitten, sat on her lap in attempt to make the pain of whatever was going on go away.
"What's wrong, Izzy?" I say putting my hand on her back. Dramatically, she stands up and slips her shoes on and walks out of the dorm room crying. We both immediately start running after her, not knowing what was wrong.
"Bye, Dorothy!" I shout slamming the door shut and running faster than I do at quidditch.
We run for what seems like hours. Past the kitchens, through the great hall, all the way to The Whomping Willow. When we get there, Izzy is sat against the tree crying. We sit down beside her. Whatever happened, it needs to be fixed.
"There is something I didn't tell you" Izzy says quietly, sniffling. "I'm bisexual." She says then begins to sob again.
"Hey, hey. It's okay, we accept you!" Anna says giving her a massive bear hug.
"Yeah, we accept you, but what's bisexual?" I say not wanting to ruin the moment, but having to know.
"I'm attracted to both girls and boys, I prefer boys though. I liked both George and Lydia" She says, no longer crying.
"Ohhh, that's fine Iz! I'd love you the same!"
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The rest of that night, we sit in our dorm with Dorothy and eat a lot of food. It's still sad, the situation with Izzy. She is such a lovely girl and it's hard to see her in so much pain. Even when she's happy, you always feel like there is something more. Guess I found out what that was today. Have you ever listen to a sweet song, but not cried? You just sat on your floor staring at the ceiling with a small smile on your face. Or you hear a nostalgic song and look out the window like you're in some kind of music video. Let's admit it, we've all been there at one point.
It's so lovely to be in the presence of an 'old soul'. Family lover, friend lover, animal lover, music lover, earth lover. It's like they are a comfort, and when they're around you finally realise all the faults in this messed up world. The fact that a 13-year-old girl had to hide her sexuality from her best friends, people can't be honest about their blood status, it's all just goes to show. No matter how much you put on an act, if you do something, at least one person will know the truth. One person. Do you realise how that could help?
I grab my notebook from my bedside table.
'Dear Eden,
I don't want to be you anymore
I don't want to put up an act
I want to be myself
Put myself out there
Idontwanttobeyouanymore.'
I walk to the bathroom and collect some sharp, silver scissors from the cabinet. You can do this, it'll make yourself feel better. Make yourself, yourself. I take the scissors to my hair, and start to cut it. All the hair that hasn't been cut for years, is now falling into the sink. Finally, I look up into the mirror and let out a breath of relief.
It's done. Wow.
What the bloody hell have I done to myself?
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forest eyes | oliver wood
Fanfic"people say goodbye so much, but you never know when you'll say it the last time." - eden sloan, born in france and attended beauxbatons, moves to hogwarts school as a transfer in her 3rd year. she eventually met her group of friends and one interes...
