A/N:I wrote this a long time ago and I don't think the same way but I thought I should share it. I tried rhyming in it and it has some parts where you can tell I was trying to.
My body is a temple that I should not harm
But have you ever stopped and looked at my arm
Not having faith doesn't mean I don't believe in God
I know that sounds odd
Just listen to me spill the beans
And I'll tell you what not having faith means
It means that I believe God is real
But not fully trust that He can heal
I hear if miracles where problems go away
But it seems like mine are here to stay
So all day I hate and at night I cry
And sometimes I'm too weak to try
Then I wonder why I am even here
And I know God is always near
But if He knows I want to commit suicide
Then why doesn't he change my mind?
I know all of this May sound bad
But I guess I'm just a little mad
That everyone else is getting healed
And I feel stuck in a big empty field
All alone because no one understands
That what I'm going through is like quicksand
I started to sink and it quickly got worse
I felt trapped and started to curse
I called out to God "Please save me"
But I guess He won't because I don't fully believe
I guess it's time for me to have faith and trust
Because it seems like it's a must
Have you changed your mind about me?
I am wondering if maybe
You will soon have to say
"She has changed in an extraordinary way"
A/N: if you relate to this in any way whether you think about suicide or have questions about God and faith, or anything, you can message me and we can talk about it.
