I drowned in thoughts,
Asking,
of all people,
Why it was me you chose to like.
I know you had developed more feelings for me as time went by.
But my feelings stayed the same.
I'll be blunt.
You were the emo kid,
You said so yourself.
You started to like the wallflower.
Damn you for doing so.
I wasn't ready,
Wasn't ready for you to like me.
And sure as hell wasn't ready for you to be sexting me.
Even after three months of talking all "cute".
Because deep down I didn't want to.
When I think about it,
You came on too strong.
After a week of talking saying I love you.
You don't even know me.
Anything besides the basics.
You don't know my past.
Or my present self now.
I've changed,
I've changed because of my past.
YOU are part of my past.
So stop trying to include yourself into the present.
I can't blame everything that I'm feeling on just you.
There are other things that factor into my emotions.
But you added fuel to the flame.
Why? Why me?
Why fuck around and ruin my emotions?
Whatever emotions that were left from before you that is.
And that part isn't about my heart being crushed when I was a little girl.
It's about something that is greater than yours and my problem.
That I can't force myself to say right now.
Just..
Of all people..
Why me?
Why?
