TO HAYDEN FROM BELLA

Chapter 6

Overthinking is a girl's first chosen priority.

We sorted it out. That morning, his phone died.. in the middle of the most awkward I have a crush on you, please be mine confession. Of course it didn't come back on because his phone sucks. A boy who has a barely working phone which he's been using since the 6th grade.. he's either got no standards or his loyalty is outstanding. I hoped for the latter.  

I honestly thought I embarrassed myself that morning in front of the only person I considered a friend. I was scared of losing what I didn't have (yet) imagine what would happen if I lost him while I actually had him. Having him was taking a big risk but I YOLO lol. Little did I know I was about to receive a blessing.
The 22nd of June was the start of something new and special. Our love developed as we learnt more about each other both good and bad. In School everyone either loved or hated us. Jealousy was very common since most relationships were falling apart for petty reasons which Hayden and I did not tolerate in our relationship.

A relationship may not be broken but the fellowship can be. I believed that the most important relationship was the one with my spouse (hopefully Hayden one day). Sociologists have said the most painful thing experienced by a human is the death of a spouse (well obviously you'd have to love them unconditionally.. before they die.. for this to be painful) and the second painful is divorce. I as a simple teenager was afraid of heartbreak. After what happened with my ex-boyfriend, trust issues was one of my first problems with Hayden.

We were now into our first month and the love was amazing it just kept growing but obviously all relationships are hard at some point, you just have to fight for each other. Love cannot be one sided. I believe your partner should sacrifice as much as you sacrifice to be with him. Some boys are too immature to take up such a commitment to maintain a relationship but if they're romantics like Hayden, they sure would make an effort.

I look around in school and see how these girls are being treated by their boyfriends and I say to myself boy am I lucky! Girls don't just want attention but they need it. Hayden spent every bit of his free time with me while other girls sat in agony waiting for their boyfriends to come back from wherever they went. Hayden and I were not just in a relationship but we were best friends. We ate lunch together and then either sat and talked about weird theories or walked around and talked about memes or something. I loved keeping his company.

Hayden stood by my side and helped me get over my heartbreak. He gave me the time and space i needed and he tried his best to prove his loyalty to me because he understood.

Over the summer vacation he came over a lot. It was our last summer before final exams and we thought it best to make the most of it. He came over quite often. We watched movies, played video games. I created excuses for him to come over all the time:

"Bella honey! The car needs washing. Would you care to help your mother?"

"Hey Mom, Hayden offered to wash the car for us" I said.

"Oh really? What a sweet gentleman he is! What time do we pick him up?" She replied.

Well of course up to this day Hayden never offered to wash the car but he came over and it was fun anyways. I've never had so much fun in such a short space of time. Thanks to Hayden, I remembered how to smile. I forgot about my past and every night I pondered on how amazing my future will be with Hayden. 

August, the second month of out summer, was his birthday. We threw a rock themed party for him. It was the first actual party I went to and the same for him even though it was his party. Hayden and I are very much the same so we both were excited. This was the highlight of our summer.

School opened in September and I was most certainly fed up of his phone which gave so much trouble. Sometimes I didn't get to talk to him for hours, and if you were in love you'd understand that 'hours' become the definition of 'years' during these situations. 

I decided to start saving up.

22nd September, 2017.

The third month since we've been together and I wanted to do something special for him. 

It was a gloomy Friday evening. Hayden came home with me after school to play video games and hang out.

"If you think about it we have our final exams in about seven months and I am probably the most unprepared student" He said.

"You think you're a delinquent when you come to my house to play my video games?" I replied. We both laughed and agreed that we should start studying and we also agreed that we most likely won't.. well until the day before the exam.
"So I was thinking. Today its been three months since we've been together, may not be long but we were good friends for quite some time."

"Where are you going with this Bella? I told you I don't want any gifts I just want to spend quality time with you" He said, kind of annoyed but I could see he appreciated the gesture. I must have my way though. I believed he was my baby and I could spoil him if I wanted to.

"I want to buy you a phone" I blurted out.

"What the fuck Bella? i thought it was just an action figure or a rock CD. You want to buy me a phone? No way!" 

"No I mean I want us both to save up for it. We can combine our money until we have enough." I tried to convince him.

"Very funny Bella. I appreciate it but you don't have to do this for me. I don't even deserve it."

"You deserve the best Hayden! Please let me do this for you. I love you."

After some time I finally managed to convince him.

For the next two months I saved every cent of allowance I got and he bought everything we needed with his money. Some of the money I saved was extra allowance my mom gave me.

During this time. I started questioning whether or not I should do this for Hayden because as any normal relationship.. problems developed.

Hayden was a bit of a satyromaniac.