Yo guys, so it's been a while since I last updated this because I've been busy with real writing. I've been actually writing a decent novel somewhere here on wattpad and it's a secret, I've already published it y'all don't have to know about it.
Other than that I also wanna tell you shit because everyday I am getting more depressed. I've already fixed this problem once like a year ago, and I haven't cut myself in three months, but lately I'm getting urges to do it again idk. at the moment I still haven't done anything. I hope I don't. I'm trying really hard not to get my blade but my head is giving reasons too.
Anyways, it's Harry's concert tomorrow where I live, and I wanna fucking kill myself because I won't be able to go like, you know Harry he's mah boo and last year when they announced he was holding a concert here I almost peed my pants in excitement. I saved my school money for that shit everyday I didn't even do any projects or paid for food, I saved it all for tickets. And after I think three months, my money's still not enough to buy the precious tickets, I have to fucking find out from my friends that all the tickets are sold out.
Fucking hell.
I didn't actually cry about it, but the fact that I won't be able to see him again ate me up inside. I promised myself that I will go to every single one of my boys' concerts in my country and I already fucking failed with one, I feel goddamned betrayed by the other fans who greedily kept the concert to themselves just because they have more money than my entire family do.
The only thing that's keeping me sane now is the fact that Niall is also going in June, and I'm cautiously saving my money for him too even though my parents keep on borrowing my savings because we're broke af. At the moment there are still tickets for the section I want inside the arena (thank fuck) and I am never going to let that one slip from my grasp because I WILL. I WILL kill a bitch if it gets sold out again.
Okay, I just wanted to clear my head up. I still wanna go into a rampage but idk it's not like I will get to see Harry live if I do that.
Bye
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